I'm so tired of it all!

[Sunny-Moon]

Hey, all...bare with me, I may be all over the place but I have no one IRL I can talk to about this.

I'm so tired of living. Of existing. Of breathing. Every morning when I wake up, I'm shattered that I didn't die in my sleep. I have nothing else to live for. This excruciating depression has swallowed me whole, and I can't fight back like I used to. Medications do nothing, therapy is pointless, and I am done.

I'm too scared to attempt. I want to be carried far away on the bus, because living hurts too much. Nothing brings me joy. I yearn for even a moment of peace of happiness, and I can't attain it.

I can barely function. Normal everyday tasks feel like huge obstacles. Hygiene, basic self care, interacting with others. I feel like a huge burden...in fact, I know I am.

Thank you for listening.

 

[Amakishiyo]

I can relate to this a lot, I hope you find your own solution for it, life is so unfair to some of us. Personally wish I had never been born, now I have to deal with the pain of living and even ending it on my own accord just isn't easy either, feeling like being stuck and not being able to move forwards or backwards. My heart goes out to you and anyone else feeling similar

 

[TimeHasCome6]

I've been struggling with sluiced for a long time now. The only reason I'm still in this world is because I could never get the energy or courage to do it. I've started convincing myself not to die. I hope you find peace. I'm glad you where able to talk about it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of feeling trapped here. There really should be an instant option for us to just peacefully disappear so we don't have to stay here for even a second longer than we wish to. There certainly does seem to be no real relief from suffering in this cruel world.