AloneInCollege
The one and only
- Mar 7, 2022
- 163
Every day is awful, and I feel like it gets worse every day. Sure there are ok days, but even on the ok days I think about offing myself a lot. I think if you drew a graph of my average mental state over the past couple of months it would just be a line going diagonally down. Every day I think its the worst, then the next day comes along. I'm so tired I haven't made my bed in a week. I haven't brushed my teeth in like 3 days. All day my mind is full of so much shit but I'm too tired and lazy to write any of it out, maybe later. I truly feel like I don't and never will have anything to live for in this world. I'm so lonely and sad and anxious and tired. God I'm rambling now. I just want to CTB so bad. Hopefully I get the energy to, I almost have in the past but I pussy out. This time I hope I don't.