I've been wanting to end it all my whole life and I never did it because I knew I would fail. I don't have the luxury of dying. I finally find a forum where I have info on how to die and EVERY METHOD HAS 0 GUARANTEE OR IS COMPLETELY INNACESABLE FOR ME. I'm not blaming the amazing community here, I'm just so damn tired. I want a method that works. I want a method I have access to. I just wanna die and not worry about wether it'll work or wether it'll give me permanent damage and one I could pull off ANYTIME, ANYWHERE, AND ONE THAT KILLS ME FOR GOOD. I'm so sorry for likely sounding aggressive but I just can't take this anymore
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Darkover
Archangel
- Jul 29, 2021
- 5,649
same agreed i just wish someone could come up with a method that is easily accessible with good reliability and essentially painless just like falling into a sleep
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,076
I understand, I feel the same, I just wish for the option to painlessly die and never suffer again, it's so painful and unbearable how I cannot just have that and instead I'm trapped in this existence that just brought me nothing but pain. It's horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering, that is exactly what I fear, I just want to fall asleep permanently, I simply wish to not exist and that's all I've ever wished for, I really understand that it's so torturous feeling trapped here, I also feel so tired.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,598
There is no 100% method. Well, no realistic method, anyway. Any method can work if you investigate, study, learn, have tenacity, and have resolve.I agree. I can think of a few guarantees for me personally, but I don't want to put my family through it. Why can't I just get something to put me to sleep and not wake up. The death will be hard enough for them, but so many factors come in to the "how".
It's almost like there should just be a pill we can take.
this is my belief, if you put the effort into learning what you're doing and why, you can get there in time.Same, the only method I have os VSED which doesn't have a very popular name here.
However as someone from the Netherlands this is actually a feasible way to go about it because doctors need to help you with it if you desire.
Also a lot of people under 60 yrs old have done it successfully here as care during the process is a right.
ijustwishtodie
I have finally found my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,795
I relate so much to you. Unfortunately every method is also inaccessible to me. Of course it isn't this site's fault but rather it's due to my unfortunate circumstances of living with parents that spy on me and don't give me any autonomy to do anything. If I even were to obtain SN, they'd intercept it and prevent me from using it. Additionally, I'm not allowed to go outside without their permission which means I can't really do anything. I hate this world and how cruel it is. I hate pro lifers and society. I have so much hate for them as they forcefully restrict suicide methods so that we stay alive for as long as possible. We honestly should just be allowed to get access to a pill that instantly and peacefully kills us off. There's no use in delaying death since it's inevitable anyway
FERAL_FRENZY
Legionnaire <3
- Apr 18, 2024
- 77
Words cannot explain how jealous I am of the mfs who obtain SN. When is it my turn fr
Sgrodolo
Member
- Aug 26, 2024
- 26
Yeah same position tbh, I know it's gonna happen eventually so might as well have fun as we waitWords cannot explain how jealous I am of the mfs who obtain SN. When is it my turn fr
JessIsAlive
Member
- Sep 9, 2024
- 52
me too, it feels like they're gatekeepingWords cannot explain how jealous I am of the mfs who obtain SN. When is it my turn fr
but I understand why, the more people know about a source the more likely it is to get shut down,
it seems even like 2-3 years ago it was wayyy easier to get SNLast edited:
belly.up4good
Member
- Dec 10, 2024
- 44
I feel, I just want to be found curled up like a stray puppy or bug you find in your window. No struggle, no suffering, just death's arms taking me away peacefully.
finishLana
Student
- Dec 12, 2021
- 152
Sn is a good method, I assume putting it in enteric capsules and taking a sedative could be more peaceful that regular sn way tho not many people did it here
NegevChina
I've done the best I could
- Sep 5, 2024
- 623
never thought of the capsule idea, could probably help down the taste too. this one is kind of selling me but if there isn't much info on it im unsure
finishLana
Student
- Dec 12, 2021
- 152
Yeah, I read about one person here who took sn in enteric capsules and didn't experience pain. It does help to avoid the taste and vomiting, as once it gets in a small intestine nothing can be vomited out. I believe it's best to take a sedative and AE first
Yeah, worth researching as it seems more peacefulSimilar threads
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