Venting I'm so scared of failing my attempt

[pomcustard]

Just the thought of still waking up after an attempt is horrifying to me. It almost makes me too scared to even attempt to begin with. I'm planning on ctb soon and I don't know what I'll do if it fails again. I'm too weak to use a method like hanging, drowning, or cutting. I desperately need this to work. I just want to be at peace. Please let this work.

 

[Themogger]

Just the thought of still waking up after an attempt is horrifying to me. It almost makes me too scared to even attempt to begin with. I'm planning on ctb soon and I don't know what I'll do if it fails again. I'm too weak to use a method like hanging, drowning, or cutting. I desperately need this to work. I just want to be at peace. Please let this work.

What method do you plan on using?

 

[pomcustard]

What method do you plan on using?

I plan on using SN. It's listed as 99+% purity and I bought it from a chemical supplier.

 

[Themogger]

I plan on using SN. It's listed as 99+% purity and I bought it from a chemical supplier.

You have the other stuff too? AE? Antacids? As long as you have a procedure you should be good to go

 

[pomcustard]

You have the other stuff too? AE? Antacids? As long as you have a procedure you should be good to go

I have anti emetics and paracetamol too. Also there seems to be mixed reactions on antacids. I'm seeing people debate that it can affect the absorption of SN, so I'm not sure if I should be taking it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I have the same fear, it's so horrific and terrifying to me how one can end up trapped in a situation of way worse torment in an existence already so immensely cruel. I also just want peace, I wish for a painless death just like never waking again, I hope you find what you search for.