I’m so ready

[doxyquill]

SN on the way, Meto and Benzos on hand.

Every morning I open my eyes and that dread of being alive washes over me instantly. It never ends until I catch that bus for my forever sleep.

I sleep as much as I can until I can't sleep anymore.

I can't wait to fall asleep for the last time. I don't even want to wake up in an afterlife or hope for another go at this life. I just want eternal darkness and peace forever, asleep and happy forever.

I can't wait.

 

[jodes2]

How long have you been suffering like this for? I hope you find peace one way or the other

 

[almaranthine]

I'm also hoping it's just eternal blackness wherein I have no form, consciousness, or identity ever again. Reincarnation is a nightmare to me... being cursed to be recycled over and over again. I personally don't understand how people happily believe in it, but perhaps they feel they are getting endless chances at enjoying life or something idk. I see it as endless suffering.

 

[doxyquill]

Years. Recently lost everything good in my life because of it and the effect of that on my will to live has destroyed the chance of getting in back. It's a cruel vicious cycle I've just had enough of

How long have you been suffering like this for? I hope you find peace one way or the other

 

[jodes2]

I understand. Can't you get the good things back over time? I'm guessing you've just had enough, fair enough

Years. Recently lost everything good in my life because of it and the effect of that on my will to live has destroyed the chance of getting in back. It's a cruel vicious cycle I've just had enough of

 

[Csmith8827]

but perhaps they feel they are getting endless chances at enjoying life or something idk.

It's something along those lines I think. Personally if I do ctb i think you probably dissappear but i mean i could be wrong. I know there's a god or higher power of some sort but i think like you can leave if you want to as well. Do we have a spirit/soul that lives forever??? who bloody fucking knows...

I just need a gun cause i have testicles...

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. Existing can certainly be so torturous and horrific. To me life itself really is the true problem and I'm also tired of it all. There is nothing more ideal than permanent eternal sleep, that's all that I ever wish for as I don't want to have to experience any of this or be aware of anything as continuing to exist just leads to more suffering inevitably being experienced. It's both painful and pointless having to stay here, I see existing as being such a cruel burden which was unfairly inflicted on us. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[SpiroSundae]

The prospect of eternal rest is so comforting