Venting I'm so empty

[heartkur]

I feel like no matter how much I try I'll just never be happy. I went out today to the club with my boyfriend and a friend and at some point I just stopped moving, and was just looking around and feeling empty. When we came back home I had a big meltdown and came crying to bed to ask my boyfriend to hug me and he got angry at me, which is understandable, because he gets up at 10am and it's 3am which is understandable and told me if I don't stop I'll have to go and I just am at a point where I don't know what to do i genuinely feel so helpless I feel like I'm just going to ctb soon really. I feel personally like I genuinely don't have a reason not to, I don't have much friends and I work a shitty warehouse job in Netherlands as an immigrant. I'm so so lost and I wish I could feel normal for once but I think there's just something fundamentally wrong with me

 

[EternallyCold]

I'm so sorry you're going through this but there's nothing wrong with you. No offence but your boyfriend sounds like a huge asshole. He's your boyfriend for fuck's sake, he's supposed to be caring for you and comforting you when you need it. I really hope things get better for you soon. Sending you love

 

[meddle]

im sorry you feel that way, buddy. your boyfriend totally overreacted. he is supposed to be there for you when you have your vulnerable moments, not be angry with you. but please try to forgive him, he was just tired

what about your friends? do you have any?

sorry about your job. maybe you could try to find another warehouse, not so shitty? or maybe even another work? you dont like your job because its hard, because its not respected or because you have low salary? or all of the above?