Venting I'm so alone

[Freedom Believer]

I don't remember the last time I've had a friend come over to my house or a friend in general. I've never dated anyone nor kissed anyone. No one except my family cares about me. I think this lack of socialization with anyone is starting to effect my sanity. I always feel like whenever I talk to someone, once I'm out of ear range they start to make fun of me. It hurts a lot thinking about it.

What's the point of this life if I have no one to share it with? Wait until my family dies and then CTB? This community is the closest thing I have to friends. You make me laugh, cry, and everything in between that a friend would do.

Thank you SS community for everything.

 

[Heart Shards]

I'm so sorry. Kind of in the same boat, but I love you! welcome to your second family. We missed you for a long time. Love, Vide!

 

[Freedom Believer]

I'm so sorry. Kind of in the same boat, but I love you! welcome to your second family. We missed you for a long time. Love, Vide!

Dammit, I'm crying again. Thank you for the love!

 

[Heart Shards]

Dammit, I'm crying again. Thank you for the love!

I got plenty in reserve. Kindness is free, never runs out, always overfills our heart with warmth. See you around SS, Lovely!

 

[Miss_Takes]

I got plenty in reserve. Kindness is free, never runs out, always overfills our heart with warmth. See you around SS, Lovely!

''how is it so easy for you
to be kind to people he asked

milk and honey dripped
from my lips as i answered

cause people have not
been kind to me''

- Rupi Kaur / Milk and Honey

 

[WornOutLife]

Thank YOU for being so nice!

Let's say you're not really alone because you have us. I'm in the same boat. I isolated myself from the world and social networks. SS, my dad and dog are the only ones for me.

I'll drink some booze in a couple of hours and have some cheers to you and this great community.

Hugs

 

[LenkaX]

I think this lack of socialization with anyone is starting to effect my sanity.

You are right, being forever alone will effect your sanity. I lost mine in 21 when I was studying on university. I so desperately wanted a girlfriend and no one was interested.

 

[WasGehtnAb?]

Do you have any special hobbies or interests? That's ususally the easiest way to socialize because even if your social skills are not very evolved there is always one topic everyone can talk about.

Also some virus is around there so online meetings aren't seen als social awkward.

 

[justsad&done]

Loneliness just makes everything hurt and makes your mind spin out of control.
It's good that you find some friendship and comfort in SS. I think many of us feel the same way.

 

[Wraith]

I've been in near complete social isolation for about half a decade and it has definitely taken a toll on my mental health. I think I read a bit ago that loneliness can be as bad as smoking a pack of cigarettes a day, possibly even worse. Humans are social beings; it makes sense that there'll be adverse effects if we don't get adequate socialisation.

 

[adios]

I'm so sorry for your situation. I know how you're feeling - I went through all of my schooling never having a single friend/relationship. It sucks.

 

[Lastsauce]

I don't remember the last time I've had a friend come over to my house or a friend in general.

I remember my last time, it was in september... 2008

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry I feel the same and the only friends I have in life are on here, so don't worry. You'll have at least us!

Sending and

 

[symphonyofthenight]

Hi Freedom, we haven't met before, but I can say that we can be friends if you want to be. Feel free to chat with me anytime. It's hard to be alone and its even harder and more painful to be lonely.

I'm sending hugs your way.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Yeah I feel you. I think my last f2f conversation was with my support worker a couple of weeks ago.

 

[Freedom Believer]

Thank YOU for being so nice!

Let's say you're not really alone because you have us. I'm in the same boat. I isolated myself from the world and social networks. SS, my dad and dog are the only ones for me.

I'll drink some booze in a couple of hours and have some cheers to you and this great community.

Hugs

Hugs to you too! Doggo really did save me. Dad initially got it when I didn't want it, but now I couldn't be more thankful that we kept her. And I couldn't be more thankful for this amazing community.

You are right, being forever alone will effect your sanity. I lost mine in 21 when I was studying on university. I so desperately wanted a girlfriend and no one was interested.

Right there with you pal. I turn 21 in a couple of months.

Do you have any special hobbies or interests? That's ususally the easiest way to socialize because even if your social skills are not very evolved there is always one topic everyone can talk about.

Also some virus is around there so online meetings aren't seen als social awkward.

I could try. Once this pandemic is over I will be more open to try it. For right now though, it's best that I stay in isolation (as per usual).

I've been in near complete social isolation for about half a decade and it has definitely taken a toll on my mental health. I think I read a bit ago that loneliness can be as bad as smoking a pack of cigarettes a day, possibly even worse. Humans are social beings; it makes sense that there'll be adverse effects if we don't get adequate socialisation.

I read about that too. Doesn't help my dad is a smoker as well. Double whammy right there.

I remember my last time, it was in september... 2008

2008 seems like such a long time ago. Everything felt better, happier. Now it's all doom and gloom.

I'm sorry I feel the same and the only friends I have in life are on here, so don't worry. You'll have at least us!

Sending and

Yes, I will always have all of you people! I love each and every one of you! From the bottom of my heart!

 

[Deleted member 94]

I once saw a movie in which a black teacher met with last person on a research camp and he said "people weren't made/meant to be alone", what he says is true for the vast majority of people because the vast majority are extroverts. I have a friend who doesn't have much money but splurges in coffee shops everyday because she can't be alone by herself.

 

[Freedom Believer]

Hi Freedom, we haven't met before, but I can say that we can be friends if you want to be. Feel free to chat with me anytime. It's hard to be alone and its even harder and more painful to be lonely.

I'm sending hugs your way.

Thank you...friend!

I once saw a movie in which a black teacher met with last person on a research camp and he said "people weren't made/meant to be alone", what he says is true for the vast majority of people because the vast majority are extroverts. I have a friend who doesn't have much money but splurges in coffee shops everyday because she can't be alone by herself.

I could never imagine myself being an extrovert.

 

[Deleted member 94]

But you say you approach people to have a conversation that's a trait of extroverts. Or did I misread your comment or meaning.

 

[LooksAtMoonDog]

This community is the closest thing I have to friends. You make me laugh, cry, and everything in between that a friend would do.

I feel ya. Haven't been here long but seem like this is true for me too. There are some neat people here who I will miss if they CTB.

 

[Freedom Believer]

But you say you approach people to have a conversation that's a trait of extroverts. Or did I misread your comment or meaning.

No, I almost never do. I only do that with family. Everyone else initiates it.

I feel ya. Haven't been here long but seem like this is true for me too. There are some neat people here who I will miss if they CTB.

Yep, SS is a second family. I love this family so much!

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

Do you have any special hobbies or interests? That's ususally the easiest way to socialize because even if your social skills are not very evolved there is always one topic everyone can talk about.

Your intentions are probably good. But I don't know whether to laugh uncontrollably or scream. I have read this so many times in pro-life forums. How does one find a hobby when one is so depressed, so sad, so wanting to just die that you can barely get out of bed?

The thing that makes me laugh about this is that I actually did find a hobby this year, completely by accident. I bought a gun to kms. Decided I needed to learn how to use it first, so signed up for a class. Which took a LOT of guts because I do not do well in groups. I loved shooting! Who knew? And I could do that by myself!

I tried sharing this with others and was blown out of the water (sorry, pun intended). I am recovering from that, still love my guns, have the beginnings of a decent collection. But those other people changed everything about it.

I am still lonely and will probably die that way, sooner or later, doesn't matter. Because every time I try to socialize, it just makes things worse and I become more and more reclusive. It is just the way it is.

I have my dog and my guns. And SS.