I'm scared

[CookedRamen]

I'm not a religious person, and I'm barely spiritual. I'm scared of what comes next, does it all just go black and I'll be stuck hanging there for eternity. Will I wake up 50 years from now born into the body of someone else?
I'm scared of a lot of things. And I honestly don't want to do it. But when everything you love is taken away from you I feel like that's the time. The fear scares me more then anything. Normally when I am making an attempt I will cry or pretend to be happy. I will have a stoic resolution. But right now I'm just scared of what comes next. I have everything I need and it won't take anymore then 2 minutes to get setup. But then what? Do I say goodbye? Do I send a note to someone or do I just do it and wait for someone to find me in the morning. Maybe this post is my goodbye. Or maybe not.

I recently found a Reddit post from 2016 saying that I would inevitably ctb and it was honestly comforting. It reminded me that I've always known this was how things would end.
Thanks for reading my mini vent. I really appreciate it. I can only hope the best for anyone reading this.

 

[itsgone2]

I'm scared too. I really needed sleep tonight

I woke after two hours
It's over

I don't need to be here

Maybe it's a sign. To finally do it
Fml I'm stuck

 

[bananaolympus]

yeah this is why im doing it when im 100% positive i want to end it like in my first attempt no fear no hesitation but that feeling and mindset hasn't appeared again

 

[meatballlover]

Technically we'll never know. But i find nothingness to be the most logical outcome. It wont be any different than sleeping without dreams.