Im sad 2024 will be my last year

[fsociety]

Yeah again, hello community!

I'm just sad, sad that my life could still be intact, all the things I've had I still could have if I would have pay more attention to it.. I ruined my life myself and always thought I would be the best choice for everyone till everybody left me.. I had a perfect life in my eyes till everything fell apart.. my girlfriend left me who was the best thing that could ever happen to me.. and my best friend canceled our friendship because he had enough of me.. since that I have nothing else left in my life, I have no pleasure and nothing brings me joy.. the last 1/2 year I thought that I could change it for the better but now I recognize that it's not possible.. everyday I think of what I've had and what I've lost, even in my dreams those memories haunt me.. so there is no way out than to Ctb… it's just sad that I could have a better life and ruined it by myself… the only thing that gives me relieve is death, not existing, not thinking and living this hell for another day struggling.. this year will be my last year..

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I'm sorry to read your story :(
I'm also sad it had to turn out like this

 

[fsociety]

I'm sorry to read your story :(
I'm also sad it had to turn out like this

For me it's better to end it when I still had a good life and don't have to suffer years till I die..

 

[feelinggloomy]

I understand in a way. The other night I was standing in the kitchen cooking one hot dog … and it occurred to me how sad my life turned out.