Help I'm ready to say Goodbye!

[Mindfukz]

I have tried to end my life 2–3 times, but I failed. Today, after three years, I can't think of anything but ending it. I have betrayed the only person I never wanted to hurt, and in the worst way possible. She was right when she said, 'You don't deserve anything.'

I'm new here, and I'm glad I found this. People here are so helpful and nice. Everyone else just told me not to do it, saying time will heal, etc.

I'm 100% sure about this—I want to do it. Earlier, when I attempted, I was scared of dying, but now I feel good. I mean, I'm kind of happy with this decision. I just hope I don't fail this time. I have failed at everything in my life.

Sorry if I said anything wrong. I'm new here and still learning. If anyone can help me with maybe painless methods, that would be really helpful.

 

[Kalista]

leave well

 

[Jadeith]

Wish you painless journey.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Hello and welcome here, I hope you find what you may be searching for in this journey. Please don't feel like a failure, we all make mistakes

 

[Forever Sleep]

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry life has brought you to this point.

It's unlikely people will advise directly on methods. It's against the rules and, it being such a major decision, I personally think it better for an individual to do their own research to decide on what's best for them.

There is a lot of information here though. There is a suicide resource compilation thread in the above sticky threads that outlines the most well known methods. After enough posts, you will also gain access to the search function.

I hope you can find sollace here. I suspect many people will relate to how you're feeling.

 

[MikuFOST]

i wish you a swift and painless death and a peaceful afterlife

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Mindfukz]

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry life has brought you to this point.

It's unlikely people will advise directly on methods. It's against the rules and, it being such a major decision, I personally think it better for an individual to do their own research to decide on what's best for them.

There is a lot of information here though. There is a suicide resource compilation thread in the above sticky threads that outlines the most well known methods. After enough posts, you will also gain access to the search function.

I hope you can find sollace here. I suspect many people will relate to how you're feeling.

Thankyou for your kind words :) means alot!

 

[Despair 7]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

Are you cookie 1234 from tentacrul's video?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry life has brought you to this point.

It's unlikely people will advise directly on methods. It's against the rules and, it being such a major decision, I personally think it better for an individual to do their own research to decide on what's best for them.

There is a lot of information here though. There is a suicide resource compilation thread in the above sticky threads that outlines the most well known methods. After enough posts, you will also gain access to the search function.

I hope you can find sollace here. I suspect many people will relate to how you're feeling.

FS covered everything I was gonna say

welcome, I hope some solace is found here for you. my dms are always open once you can chat. remember, you're not alone in any of your feelings around ctb. we are here with you and for me. don't hesitate to reach out

 

[needthebus]

so sorry things have been so hard <3 for you

there's a thread i wrote about things to try prior to considering a suicide attempt. i hope you read it in case this is impulsive or you haven't tried to get better

i'm so sorry life has been painful and hard, everyone here is really nice, some people stay a while and leave the site because they get better, some people end things, but one thing about this place is you won't be judged for being sad or unhappy and you can be you and vent and complain and everyone will understand

(i've also failed at everything... including multiple attempts)

 

[Mindfukz]

FS covered everything I was gonna say

welcome, I hope some solace is found here for you. my dms are always open once you can chat. remember, you're not alone in any of your feelings around ctb. we are here with you and for me. don't hesitate to reach out

I was so sure about doing it, but now I'm having second thoughts. I mean, this site has really changed my perspective. What I've realised is that I didn't want to die. I just wanted to feel happy for once, like I was suffocating all the time. So for now i'm trying to keep my family happy. And Thankyou for commenting :) means alot!

so sorry things have been so hard <3 for you

there's a thread i wrote about things to try prior to considering a suicide attempt. i hope you read it in case this is impulsive or you haven't tried to get better

i'm so sorry life has been painful and hard, everyone here is really nice, some people stay a while and leave the site because they get better, some people end things, but one thing about this place is you won't be judged for being sad or unhappy and you can be you and vent and complain and everyone will understand

(i've also failed at everything... including multiple attempts)

Thank you for the thread it was helpful.
It's really sad that we can't even die without failing, but maybe—just maybe—there's something we're meant to do, something we need to make right.

 

[roommate]

Welcome, wishing you the best of luck :)

 

[human909]

I hope you find the peace that you've been searching for.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

im so happy to hear that OP! it's not uncommon at all to feel like you're feeling. this community has a way of holding space for all the shit things we're feeling— and often people that can say "me too" — I like to think sasu helps everyone feel less alone. sending you hugs! you got this! we're here for you. my dms are always open

 

[rozeske]

That is the best outcome op, I'm happy for you for deciding to keep going. It's true, most of us don't really want to die just circumstances pushed us to this point. Keep on the good fight and good luck!