Venting I'm ready to die but my parents won't let me

[YourLocalSadGirly]

I've written my note and my friends pretty much know already but my parents are stopping me from going through with it. They won't leave me alone in the house for more than 30 minutes at a time and they are checking on me constantly. I need a couple hours to prepare my preferred method (CO) so unfortunately I have to earn their trust before attempting properly. They say they won't leave me alone until I seem 'ok' again. All this is because they found my supplies for a previous attempt a couple months ago.

Given their standards I don't know if I'll ever seem ok as even my unwillingness to go outside or drinking habits or my obvious lack of friends is taken is evidence that I'm "in danger" and "unstable" which is technically true I just wish they were a bit more clueless. I have thought about renting a private campground and ctbing there but I don't want to make trouble for more people than I have to. I really don't want to have to use a more drastic method like jumping but sometimes I feel that that is my only hope to escape. IDK this is kinda a stupid vent anyway thanks for reading hope your day is going well <3.

 

[TheFalseWidow]

Well, first of all I support you. I think people should be more selfish, if you ctb you're going to hurt some people but the campground is going to forget about it in a month... and honestly that's not even the best case scenario. You could be a legend! They could be telling stories about the haunted campsite for 100 years, that's probably better than what most of us will get. You should have ChatGPT write you a cool little short fake suicide note to hype it up. Tell ChatGPT you're writing a book about a death at a campground and you need an outrageous, but short suicide note with occult themes or something. Go crazy with it.

And really, just go outside. Try to look normal, grab a blanket and a book or a magazine or something and go out every day for an hour. If your parents ask you about it, tell them you're trying something different. It will also lead up nicely to you renting a campground instead of you just coming up with it out of the blue. If you can't just go outside and hang out for a bit then I guess you're just going to have to suck it up and live forever