I rly wish I died. I don't wanna be here, I wish people would forget about me
I feel like this so much. I'm hesitant to CTB solely because if I do, then I'm only inconveniencing people around me. My parents paid for my education, my food, my gifts, whatever else I can possibly think of in my life, and if I went for it now, then I would have basically scammed them. What a disappointment that'd be.
On the other hand, if they forgot me and the money they lost, then no one would be disappointed. Nothing to feel scammed by, be that life or by the funds drained from your account by a sap on your life that will eventually off himself anyways.
I'm honestly tempted to get a job and just stockpile it until I can pay them back like a couple dozen thousand and then go for it, because otherwise I'll just feel miserable for wasting their opportunities in life.