Venting Im not here anymore.

[0kcomputer]

I dont even exist anymore I think. I'm in love with someone I barely talk to. I know I have a girlfriend and she's fine with it but...I feel bad, im not even here anymore and i don't talk to her either or get any enjoyment anymore. All I do is sit there and daydream about being a actual normal person and having a kid and us all being musicians and having a good life and actually being happy. But no, it's not even reality, I'm just laying here, starving myself to death and not even feeling anything towards people dying around me anymore. I'm a empty piece of shit.
I dont know what to do.