I'm not good with friendships.

[EndlessRage]

I have made many friends throughout my life, i always end up leaving or they leave me. Most of them call me ''emotional'' or to be having low impulse control i think it is true, i am very bad at keeping friends i can get angry or show a lot of emotional reaction if they say something wrong about me or joke with me. I get told that a real man doesn't let himself be emotional because it is linked ''Low Testosterone'' which lead me to thinking i am Neurodivergent cause my behavior is always aggressive, i can be excessively mean to people. I can't help myself with that nor can i change it which is why i stopped making friends perhaps it is my own fault, sometimes i do really show signs of sociopathic behavior.

Anyone else feel this way? What makes you cope through this, feel free to share your thoughts.

 

[burninghill]

Hi, I'm autistic and bipolar 2. I feel the same way, I have a hard time connecting with people deeply and have a really really short fuse. Because of my autism, I also have a hard time pretending to be in a good mood if I'm not and I can usually come off as really blunt which means that I can come off as quite rude even if it isn't my intention.

It's really difficult, you just need to communicate with the people around you and find people who understand and are patient. I haven't had any success I changing the way I am internally, but having the right people around you definitely helps.