I'm not going back to work

[undecidedfool]

I just got out of the hospital yesterday. I haven't told my boss yet. I didn't want her to have to make me work yesterday. I'm sure she would have wanted to give me today off, but HR probably would have made her make me come in. HR doesn't like me and I don't like them.

Now I still plan to tell my boss that I'm out today and that I can go back on Monday. She'll worry if she doesn't hear from me at all. But in reality, I have no intention of going back. I'm going out to buy a gun on Monday morning before I would normally go in. Then I can finally be done.

I am never going to work again. It's so surreal and such a relief at the same time. Having to work in general has been pushing me over the edge for years. It's all always too stressful, no matter what type of job I have at the time.

I know there are many good things in life, but work is one of the many things that overshadows them. But now I'm never dealing with it again. It's finally going to be over soon.

Sorry if this is kind of all over the place. I'm just waking up for the day and wanted to ramble.

 

[itsgone2]

I ramble a lot. About work too. It's ok to ramble here I think
What are you saying? What will you do instead?

 

[undecidedfool]

What will you do instead?

I plan to ctb before I'm expected to be back at work

It's easier than trying and failing again to stay sane at this job (or any job for that matter)

 

[metfan647]

Having to work an unfulfilling role is truly soul crushing. I mean, working 40 hours+ a week is just a waste of a life.

 

[Star67]

I plan to ctb before I'm expected to be back at work

It's easier than trying and failing again to stay sane at this job (or any job for that matter)

I'm currently off work for treatment and I plan to do the same before having to return to work in 6-8 weeks.

 

[itsgone2]

I plan to ctb before I'm expected to be back at work

It's easier than trying and failing again to stay sane at this job (or any job for that matter)

That's my plan every weekend. Every time I fail

Having to work an unfulfilling role is truly soul crushing. I mean, working 40 hours+ a week is just a waste of a life.

Agree and I know that's part of the reason I hate my life; the job I had was a job but we mostly had fun together. It didnt feel like 40. It's a shame because private equity is destroying everything

 

[marcelinevampqueen]

omg i can relate hard
i literally almost got fired bc i hadn't shown up in a while
i worked 2 days ago and was supposed to go today and yesterday but i literally just couldn't my job is physical and it literally drains the energy out of me
even tho i try to force myself bc things won't get better if i dont i just freeze and can't leave my house even after getting dressed and everything
i think abt CTB at work by jumping
when i don't go im literally in bed all day sleeping and thinking abt CTB but im so tired i don't even wanna get up and do it
working to live is such a scam forever wish i could live in the forest and eat meat and berries like early humans