Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
Moving to a transitional type housing with in house support. It provides quite a bit so i don't have many expenses.
I had seen it 2 years ago but somehow my application got lost. Went to were again a week or so ago & solve coming up in January. So i redid my application and sent it in. I got the call today.
I can't even really believe its real. I've realized how much hope i lost inside honestly pretty much all of it...
I can't even feel so many things I've lost so much inside and I'm not sure if it's possible to get it all back. I think it'll be limited but i shall decide if that's enough for me.
(Fyi i live with my abusive and extremely unhealthy mother. I am/was very stuck making basic life things hard and making moving impossible.)
This is a big and important change for me. Truthfully i just wanted to move and see how i feel. Also, tho mind already made up in that i just wanted to move and do it elsewhere. Least if i fail to ave some security.
Just realizing how damaged & cut off & just... Dead I am.
So its something to be hopeful about but I've lost the ability to feel anything like that. I am excited and such i njst don't feel it.
Maybe when its my reality i will.
I had seen it 2 years ago but somehow my application got lost. Went to were again a week or so ago & solve coming up in January. So i redid my application and sent it in. I got the call today.
I can't even really believe its real. I've realized how much hope i lost inside honestly pretty much all of it...
I can't even feel so many things I've lost so much inside and I'm not sure if it's possible to get it all back. I think it'll be limited but i shall decide if that's enough for me.
(Fyi i live with my abusive and extremely unhealthy mother. I am/was very stuck making basic life things hard and making moving impossible.)
This is a big and important change for me. Truthfully i just wanted to move and see how i feel. Also, tho mind already made up in that i just wanted to move and do it elsewhere. Least if i fail to ave some security.
Just realizing how damaged & cut off & just... Dead I am.
So its something to be hopeful about but I've lost the ability to feel anything like that. I am excited and such i njst don't feel it.
Maybe when its my reality i will.