Help I'm looking for a russian roulette type of method

[AngelicPsychedelic]

I want to ctb, but I'm not sure I want to ctb. I keep going back and forth like this on it multiple times a day, so I want to try something just to see which way the wind will blow. I don't believe in fate but I wanna try anyway.

I'm looking for a method that in case of failure leads to little (prefferably none) long-term damage, and I don't have to get "rescued"/go to a doctor.
The higher the success rate the better, but the little to no long-term damage in case of failure is of more importance.

(I don't have access to a gun, so I can't play russian roulette)

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that doing such a thing would just lead to more suffering, I don't get why anyone who doesn't actually want to leave this world would want to risk ending up with damage. I just think that people should only attempt a suicide method if they actually want to die.

 

[AngelicPsychedelic]

I think that doing such a thing would just lead to more suffering, I don't get why anyone who doesn't actually want to leave this world would want to risk ending up with damage. I just think that people should only attempt a suicide method if they actually want to die.

I think if I were to survive I would have more will to live (I have heard of this happening to people), and if I died I wouldn't have to face more suffering, I'd be at piece. It just seems like a good solution. I might not want to die but I don't want to live either.

 

[Caoine01]

I can understand this basic attitude. But maybe you could start at a lower level than Russian Roulette. I once stood on a 10 meter tower at a public swimming pool. I was sure that I would survive the jump unscathed. Nevertheless, my SI closed. Once you've done something like that, you can always aim higher, ok?

 

[AngelicPsychedelic]

I can understand this basic attitude. But maybe you could start at a lower level than Russian Roulette. I once stood on a 10 meter tower at a public swimming pool. I was sure that I would survive the jump unscathed. Nevertheless, my SI closed. Once you've done something like that, you can always aim higher, ok?

thx, I'll consider this!

 

[QiTianDaSheng]

I once spun fire in a lightning storm (with a big metal pole) u der this assumption. God didnt smite me that day at least, but the boost to will to live was fleeting...

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

I once spun fire in a lightning storm (with a big metal pole) u der this assumption. God didnt smite me that day at least, but the boost to will to live was fleeting...

It's kinda like the affects near death experiences in general have on people, they usually don't last too long