Venting Im leaving soon

[Moribunz]

I feel safe, knowing I am letting go of this world soon. I do not have any worries for after because Im not experiencing it. I am okay with that. I have spent my last few days looking at things and the little details in the world. I dont feel like I belong here. Despite how beautiful and colorful the world is.. It has no meaning behind it. Even if I died later, it would feel no different than dying tomorrow. Because in that moment everything has already happened. I have 8 more days to go. Im still wondering how I should or if my initial plan is good. I wrote letters to my family.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

If you think life is beautiful and colourful maybe you should reconsider your decision to ctb but anyway I wish you all the best to whatever decision that you end up taking…. All the best to whatever you end up choosing

 

[InTheDarkAlone]

I hope you find peace and your passing is quick. The world is a cruel place, no amount of color can alleviate the fact that the pleasantries are just an illusion.

 

[Moribunz]

It just is beautiful. My mind isn't suitable for it. It doesn't matter. Im just a body. Believably soulless. But my mind takes away from what the world has given me. Involuntary hallucinations and panic episodes. ig im saying ive tried to enjoy it but i think im tired and enjoyed enough. Im more comfortable with the thought of eternal sleep.

 

[GasMonkey]

I also think that life is beautiful and colorful... for people with good genetics, optimal health and good environment. :)

 

[outrider567]

If you think life is beautiful and colourful maybe you should reconsider your decision to ctb but anyway I wish you all the best to whatever decision that you end up taking…. All the best to whatever you end up choosing

The world is beautiful and colorful, but when you lose the person you shared it all with, you don't enjoy it anymore--We saw the Fall colors in Vermont and NC many many times, and went to Colorado and Yosemite and saw the giant Redwoods also--but its all for nothing now

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's absurd describing this harmful and dangerous world where there is unlimited potential to suffer as being "beautiful". Existence is just meaningless and unnecessary suffering, the existence of life is nothing more than a horrific tragedy that never should have existed. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the freedom that you are searching for, at least for me the only comfort lies in the thought of everything being forgotten about for all eternity, instead to cease existing is the beautiful thing as in death there are no problems and pain.

 

[Moribunz]

To me it's absurd describing this harmful and dangerous world where there is unlimited potential to suffer as being "beautiful". Existence is just meaningless and unnecessary suffering, the existence of life is nothing more than a horrific tragedy that never should have existed. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the freedom that you are searching for, at least for me the only comfort lies in the thought of everything being forgotten about for all eternity, instead to cease existing is the beautiful thing as in death there are no problems and pain.

It's subjective no matter what. You dont know what experiences I have gone through. I still see it as pretty for its detail and colors. I see everything as pretty including the features on peoples faces. It just has no meaning. Your text indicates you didnt understand what I said.

To me it's absurd describing this harmful and dangerous world where there is unlimited potential to suffer as being "beautiful". Existence is just meaningless and unnecessary suffering, the existence of life is nothing more than a horrific tragedy that never should have existed. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the freedom that you are searching for, at least for me the only comfort lies in the thought of everything being forgotten about for all eternity, instead to cease existing is the beautiful thing as in death there are no problems and pain.

mind, I find fog beautiful, rain beautiful, shiny things and matte things. Pebbles, rubles, mud, grass, smoke, fire. Just I find it pretty and interesting bc its is detailed. It doesnt mean anything beyond that.

 

[gurowuro]

I feel safe, knowing I am letting go of this world soon. I do not have any worries for after because Im not experiencing it. I am okay with that. I have spent my last few days looking at things and the little details in the world. I dont feel like I belong here. Despite how beautiful and colorful the world is.. It has no meaning behind it. Even if I died later, it would feel no different than dying tomorrow. Because in that moment everything has already happened. I have 8 more days to go. Im still wondering how I should or if my initial plan is good. I wrote letters to my family.

we hope you find peace <3

 

[NoStanding]

Don't rush yourself and just take it easy. I hope that if you should change your mind, you can appreciate the beauty and color a little longer. Anyhow everyone seems to create their own meaning for existence. Mine is to travel and see more beauty and appreciate it until I'm gone. If you absolutely won't change your mind, I wish you the best anyway.

 

[Letgo]

I wish you peace and rest. Will be thinking of you.