Im killing myself in a few hours

[Braindead Atheist]

My family pisses me off and I never want to see them again. I hate my goddamn life and I have no future because I'm retarded. I wish it were just over and I'm killing myself as soon as they leave for the lake. I heard if you take a whole bottle of benedrill you will die so that's what I am going to do. I'm being my own hero and saving myself from a long horrible, boring and exhausting life. I'm going to end it asap and I don't care who I hurt.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I don't think Bennadryl will do it. If it were that easy more people would do it this way. I relate to your anger. My family really pisses me off too. Seriously, Bennadryl is not going to do it alone.

 

[Lost Magic]

My family pisses me off and I never want to see them again. I hate my goddamn life and I have no future because I'm retarded. I wish it were just over and I'm killing myself as soon as they leave for the lake. I heard if you take a whole bottle of benedrill you will die so that's what I am going to do. I'm being my own hero and saving myself from a long horrible, boring and exhausting life. I'm going to end it asap and I don't care who I hurt.

You really need to think this death thing through more. Benadryl aint gonna do shit.

 

[hendry]

I can't cheer you up. I haven't words of encouragement. Life is difficult these days. There aren't sunny days, everything is gray. If it is your decision. I hope you find peace. Even if you hate your family, try to leave them a goodbye letter. So that they don't suffer from uncertainty.

Hugs

 

[Apricity]

Stole this from a medical journal. You're gonna need a lot more than one bottle.

3.4.2 Diphenhydramine
Diphenhydramine is a relatively nontoxic antagonist of the histamine H1 receptor. However, sedative and anticholinergic effects become prominent in individuals who overdose on this drug. This autonomic disturbance has been linked to hypertension, hypotension, tachycardia, ventricular arrhythmia, and cardiac arrest.72 Death may occur within 2 hours of overdose, with a fatal dose for children estimated to be 500 mg and for adults 20 to 40 mg/kg.73 Because of diphenhydramine's cholinergic effects, cautious use of physostigmine as an antidote has been suggested.73 Diphenhydramine rapidly distributes from the plasma to the tissue so that forced diuresis and hemodialysis are unlikely to be efficacious in facilitating its clearance.72,73

 

[Dymming Star6]

My family pisses me off and I never want to see them again. I hate my goddamn life and I have no future because I'm retarded. I wish it were just over and I'm killing myself as soon as they leave for the lake. I heard if you take a whole bottle of benedrill you will die so that's what I am going to do. I'm being my own hero and saving myself from a long horrible, boring and exhausting life. I'm going to end it asap and I don't care who I hurt.

Unfortunately, Benadryll won't complete the mission. I know this for a fact! Back in April of this year, I took over 60 of them, needless to say. I only ended up vomitting profusely and "zombified" for 3 whole days thereafter, ugh! The aforementioned method is not fail-proof. Please, choose wisely...

 

[kekveryloud]

will be extremely painful fren
try to hold off a little longer to afford better methods

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering, living is painful and I know how hard it is to be in a hopeless situation. I agree with what the others have said about the method though.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, like others have said take some time out, evaluate everything and if it all gets to much at least find better methods.

 

[Bullit]

Dude,you sound young! Maybe too young for this ctb bullshit! Try to get along with your family, try to make it better. Check back with us!

 

[toforigivelife]

That your family pissed you off doesn't sound like a good reason to end it all.

But I don't know how dire your situation is but I do know how deep suicidal feelings go.

I wish it hadn't come to this point for you. I wish you well and a way out of the circumstances that have brought you to the point of suicide.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I'm sorry for your pain, friend.

And just as the OP's said, Benadryl won't work. You will need a lot and you risk being "saved" and your wish to ctb will be discovered. You might even end up in a psych ward.

Wouldn't be better to try SN or N? Or even practice with rope?

Also, I'm sorry, but you seem a bit stressed. This is a decision that you need to make while "calm", as strange as this might sound.
Just giving an idea, of course.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

The fact that your family pissed you off doesn't sound like a good reason to end it all. But I don't know how dire your situation is and I do know how deep suicidal feelings go.

I wish it hadn't come to this point for you. I wish you well and a way out of the circumstances that have brought you to the point of suicide

It's really fucking hard.

 

[toforigivelife]

I sorta think this person doesn't need your death instructions. Not sorta. I don't.

No. They don't. I have edited my answer.

Any way you can edit my quoted text?
Braindead Atheist, since your family is the problem right now; is there a another family member or a friend you could stay with and maybe get the opportunity to sort out your thoughts and feelings?

 

[Braindead Atheist]

You really need to think this death thing through more. Benadryl aint gonna do shit.

It didn't, I'm still fucking here. What else should I try?

Stole this from a medical journal. You're gonna need a lot more than one bottle.

3.4.2 Diphenhydramine
Diphenhydramine is a relatively nontoxic antagonist of the histamine H1 receptor. However, sedative and anticholinergic effects become prominent in individuals who overdose on this drug. This autonomic disturbance has been linked to hypertension, hypotension, tachycardia, ventricular arrhythmia, and cardiac arrest.72 Death may occur within 2 hours of overdose, with a fatal dose for children estimated to be 500 mg and for adults 20 to 40 mg/kg.73 Because of diphenhydramine's cholinergic effects, cautious use of physostigmine as an antidote has been suggested.73 Diphenhydramine rapidly distributes from the plasma to the tissue so that forced diuresis and hemodialysis are unlikely to be efficacious in facilitating its clearance.72,73

I fell asleep before I could even take the whole fucking bottle. I wish I had chosen better. I hate my life and have no future. If things get bad again I'm going to try sn if I can find it. Void of existence here I come!

 

[Squiddy]

It didn't, I'm still fucking here. What else should I try?

I fell asleep before I could even take the whole fucking bottle. I wish I had chosen better. I hate my life and have no future. If things get bad again I'm going to try sn if I can find it. Void of existence here I come!

I know how you feel. My family is pretty shitty too and is one reason why I want to ctb. My main reason though is my mental health.

 

[EveningPrimrose]

It didn't, I'm still fucking here. What else should I try?

I fell asleep before I could even take the whole fucking bottle. I wish I had chosen better. I hate my life and have no future. If things get bad again I'm going to try sn if I can find it. Void of existence here I come!

There are easier ways to escape your family than getting dead.
Do not turn to drugs or alcohol. That'll just compound the shittiness.
If you're old enough to join the military, do that. You'll be paid to be away from your family and will still get to see more of life.

 

[Apricity]

There are easier ways to escape your family than getting dead.
Do not turn to drugs or alcohol. That'll just compound the shittiness.
If you're old enough to join the military, do that. You'll be paid to be away from your family and will still get to see more of life.

I assume OP is old enough to join the military, as minors are prohibited here.

 

[Acopia]

Calm down, take your time to look around the site and get to know the community.
No-one will tell you how to end your life, you need to look around & find out for yourself.
-A