i'm incapable of being/doing anything normal

[AintNoWayOut]

my physical pain prevents me from being able to act or feel like a normal person. i struggle greatly to socialize, cant even dress how i want to because certain clothes will worsen it (the pain/discomfort), cant workout and get in good shape, cant do FUCKING ANYTHING because of it. who else cant do these basic things, especially due to something like physical pain?? why am i so young yet in chronic pain due to ONE incident years ago? why is my life so weirdly complicated and frustrating at every turn?? and thats just one thing, im also a mental wreck as well. im not even comfortable driving. i bet most of you cant name three adults in your lives who cant drive. i mean, i have my license, but... shortly after getting it i nearly got in an accident and ive felt extremely unconfident ever since. so now im stuck at my home and criticized by my dad for it... as if i wasnt already enough of a hermit, i cant even get myself around like a NORMAL person at 22. idk why i turned out this way but theres just so much fucking shit wrong with me. its not just a few things, its just about every aspect of who i am, and much of it is out of my control. theres no way i can ever live a decent life with all of these issues and limitations. im a freak... i wish i died years ago before i got to realize how bad things really were.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

i bet most of you cant name three adults in your lives who cant drive.

Me, myself and I.

 

[Symbiote]

my wife, my sister in law, and my mother in law. all shitty drivers.

But they've been lucky so far when it comes to crashing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be cruel to us. Our bodies can torture us and chronic health problems can take away our quality of life. We all deserve an peaceful way out if we want one, nobody deserves the suffering that this life gives them. I wish you the best.

 

[Hurt]

Me too. I can't function. I wake up wanting to die and I go to bed feeling the same. And my mood doesn't change along the day. Maybe a funny meme or a joke makes me laugh but in general I'm broken. My life is a mess.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm so sorry you're going through that hell!!!
I can't imagine how painful and annoying being in your situation might be.

Physical or mental, pain is just unbearable and we don't deserve to suffer from it at all.

Hope you can feel better, somehow, soon.

Hugs nad love,

Matt

 

[Red]

So sorry you have this pain so young - it's so frustrating to feel like the prime of your life is being ruined by physical things out of your control; I know this only too well!

Fight for what you need to be comfortable! You are just as valid as any other person in this world, I hate that such stigma and attitude is attached to chronic pain sufferers in this world - it is the lack of compassion that hurts the most.

You have my sympathies and if you ever want to talk, my inbox is open. Living in pain is so lonely

 

[miulake]

I dont have physical pain like you but I am also incapable of being normal. My mental health is a wreck. Low confidence, anxiety , panic, etc.
Physically I feel like I am rotting. I am losing weight, my arms and shoulders seem to belong to a child, not to a 30 yr old man. I am shrinking.
My body is bloated all the time. I smell of fart, faeces, and sometime I smell of rot and death.

I have been to doctors who cant help me. So I am stuck. I had an escape in smoking cigarettes but now smoking makes my body smell 100 times worst, like sewer smell, sulpher or something for 3-4 days atleast.

I have no escape. None except for death perhaps.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

So sorry you have this pain so young - it's so frustrating to feel like the prime of your life is being ruined by physical things out of your control; I know this only too well!

Fight for what you need to be comfortable! You are just as valid as any other person in this world, I hate that such stigma and attitude is attached to chronic pain sufferers in this world - it is the lack of compassion that hurts the most.

You have my sympathies and if you ever want to talk, my inbox is open. Living in pain is so lonely

yea, its not easy being in pain to begin with, but at such a young age and having it come between everything is hell. i dont even tell most people about my pain issues because its often just overlooked. people dont have any clue just how much it affects my day to day life... it influences damn near my every action, and even my thoughts. ty for the kind words and invitation ((:

I dont have physical pain like you but I am also incapable of being normal. My mental health is a wreck. Low confidence, anxiety , panic, etc.
Physically I feel like I am rotting. I am losing weight, my arms and shoulders seem to belong to a child, not to a 30 yr old man. I am shrinking.
My body is bloated all the time. I smell of fart, faeces, and sometime I smell of rot and death.

I have been to doctors who cant help me. So I am stuck. I had an escape in smoking cigarettes but now smoking makes my body smell 100 times worst, like sewer smell, sulpher or something for 3-4 days atleast.

I have no escape. None except for death perhaps.

my body is a piece of trash which needs to be taken out. its worn out and defective, i have no use for this thing anymore. i'd be so much better off if i could live outside of this run down vehicle, but sadly thats not a choice. so like you i continue to rot in it.

that really sucks though, im assuming you've tried different things for your situation and still catch flak for it. i dont usually smell horrible when out in public, but i sit in my room for hours a day and sometimes wear the same clothes for a week straight so my room stinks up pretty bad and my dad went off on me about it. its because im so depressed that i cant be fucked to change and wash my clothes regularly, plus like i said earlier, i dont find that many clothes comfortable in this broken body so i end up wearing the same shit over and over again. i wish i could wear what i want and experiment with different styles but.... too much of a hassle. life wont allow me to comfortably do anything.