I'm in a middle of a breakup and I'm in crisis. I feel ready to exit. I need to get resources to ctb asap.

[lolfuturecorpse]

I'm open to SN method (I am based in the US) and guns.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm open to SN method (I am based in the US) and guns.

I am sorry your break up has brought you to this point. I'm sorry you're going through emotional pain right now. I wish you peace no matter your choice

 

[lolfuturecorpse]

I am sorry your break up has brought you to this point. I'm sorry you're going through emotional pain right now. I wish you peace no matter your choice

thank you so much, love. i am really in a crisis and distressing mood right now. i really want to get some emotional support until I get the resources for ctb. i don't wanna call any suicide hotline number since they might get someone to check up on me or something. i just wanna leave. I'm too ugly to be in this world. :(

 

[Journeytoletgo]

thank you so much, love. i am really in a crisis and distressing mood right now. i really want to get some emotional support until I get the resources for ctb. i don't wanna call any suicide hotline number since they might get someone to check up on me or something. i just wanna leave. I'm too ugly to be in this world. :(

I am so sorry you can pm me to vent if you wish to share. I'm sorry, heartbreak is incredibly painful I experienced it, it's very traumatic and can definitely lead us in this direction. Do you have any close family or friends to reach out to to spill your heart out? If not my PM is open to vent. Sorry you're suffering I wish you peace

 

[TheUnkn0wn]

Hey OP, I can relate. I was dumped over text after a 6 year relationship because of a covid test. I tried CBT'ing because I was in such heart break but survived the attempt, and despite still being broken, I somehow am hanging on. Definitely reach out and vent if you have to. Don't do anything rational unless it's something you absolutely want. The pain/grieving is normal and is very hard to overcome, but I believe in you!

 

[FuneralCry]

Living can be painful, I'm sorry to hear you are suffering so much. I wish you peace if you decide to leave this world.

 

[lolfuturecorpse]

Living can be painful, I'm sorry to hear you are suffering so much. I wish you peace if you decide to leave this world.

thank you so much, i truly want to leave. i need all the support I can get

I am so sorry you can pm me to vent if you wish to share. I'm sorry, heartbreak is incredibly painful I experienced it, it's very traumatic and can definitely lead us in this direction. Do you have any close family or friends to reach out to to spill your heart out? If not my PM is open to vent. Sorry you're suffering I wish you peace

I truly appreciate your kindest words, friend. <3 thank you so much for understanding where I come from.

 

[lolfuturecorpse]

Hey OP, I can relate. I was dumped over text after a 6 year relationship because of a covid test. I tried CBT'ing because I was in such heart break but survived the attempt, and despite still being broken, I somehow am hanging on. Definitely reach out and vent if you have to. Don't do anything rational unless it's something you absolutely want. The pain/grieving is normal and is very hard to overcome, but I believe in you!

this sounded incredibly painful, you don't deserve any of this. i wish I could give you a huge hug. :(

I truly want to exit. This is just the cherry on top for me

 

[cantseethelight]

I'm open to SN method (I am based in the US) and guns.

I'm so sorry to hear about your pain and distress. You're not an ugly personal, you're a beautiful living human being. I know it's hard but every time that voice pops up shut it down and tell yourself you are beautiful even if it feels stupid.
im not one to talk because I want to CTB, but before you do anything please give yourself sometime to move away from the energy and emotions your experiencing from what you've just been through.
It could something that's temporary and someone and something around the corner could help you in a way you just can't imagine right now.
again I'm not belittling what you're feeling, but I just in the past I've been in a similar situation and I attempted CTB, I'm so glad I hadn't because something saved me from that place even though I've now lost that someone, I still had a chance and so could you.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I'm also surviving a breakup and I'm sorry that you are going through it. Like you, I've also thought of CTB and I know it can be rough. I do hope you can get the peace you want, either way.

 

[grail]

I'm sure it's not what you want to hear from a suicide discussion website, but I don't think you should be so hasty to ctb right after a breakup. you'll likely be glad you didn't after you give yourself time. and if you aren't, you can ctb then. there's no reason to do it right now though, unless you really want to make the other person feel bad or something.

 

[justpeachy]

I'm sure it's not what you want to hear from a suicide discussion website, but I don't think you should be so hasty to ctb right after a breakup. you'll likely be glad you didn't after you give yourself time. and if you aren't, you can ctb then. there's no reason to do it right now though, unless you really want to make the other person feel bad or something.

I agree completely. And to the OP, we can't really give you tips on how to CTB or what to do. You can check out the resources section though. Aside from that you likely won't find anyone giving advice on how to CTB. It's actually against the rules here. Like many have said if you want to talk all of our inboxes are open & many of us can relate. I don't think you should make this decision during such a traumatic time either. It seems very impulsive and urgent feeling which isn't going to give you a peaceful exit. Also you will learn that you don't need any other human being to live (not saying overall, I'm speaking to needing one specific person) and that time will heal the pain that feels so raw right now. I can promise you that. Whatever choice you make you will be in my thoughts.

 

[brutalus]

I agree completely. And to the OP, we can't really give you tips on how to CTB or what to do. You can check out the resources section though. Aside from that you likely won't find anyone giving advice on how to CTB. It's actually against the rules here. Like many have said if you want to talk all of our inboxes are open & many of us can relate. I don't think you should make this decision during such a traumatic time either. It seems very impulsive and urgent feeling which isn't going to give you a peaceful exit. Also you will learn that you don't need any other human being to live (not saying overall, I'm speaking to needing one specific person) and that time will heal the pain that feels so raw right now. I can promise you that. Whatever choice you make you will be in my thoughts.

wot? we cant advice on how to kill self?!?! i thought that was the whole point of this forum! could u point me in the direction of these rules please?

 

[MellowAvenue]

wot? we cant advice on how to kill self?!?! i thought that was the whole point of this forum! could u point me in the direction of these rules please?

These are the rules. The specific one here is:

Do not encourage, suggest, manipulate, coerce, or help users carry out acts of any nature whatsoever, including suicide; only provide factual information and emotional support to those who ask for it. Do not try to get the community to tell you what to do, only you can choose your path and actions

We can give factual information on methods that may be peaceful, but that's about the extent of it from my understanding.

 

[brutalus]

These are the rules. The specific one here is:

Do not encourage, suggest, manipulate, coerce, or help users carry out acts of any nature whatsoever, including suicide; only provide factual information and emotional support to those who ask for it. Do not try to get the community to tell you what to do, only you can choose your path and actions

We can give factual information on methods that may be peaceful, but that's about the extent of it from my understanding.

thank you. i think theres some wiggle room :)

 

[Snake of Eden]

I wouldnt ctb over a breakup. I am sorry you are going through rough time and I hope you find your way out of the heartbreak but no one is deserving enough to have you lose your life over it

 

[Neowise]

I have a personal rule: "never commit suicide over a breakup".
It may sound harsher than I mean it, but breakups happen all the time. If everyone killed themselves because of it only 1% of the entire population would be left by now. Relationships usually come and go, and I am sure you will find new luck in the future. But I understand that you are very hurt right now and think everything is over. But it isn't, at least if this is your only reason you are feeling down.

Whatever your ultimate desicion is, I wish you the best. And I hope you will feel better soon, one way or the other!

 

[justpeachy]

thank you. i think theres some wiggle room :)

There isn't "wiggle room." You will get this site banned or removed which will destroy many peoples lives. The rules are there for a reason. Ppl are trying to take this site down everyday and you cannot encourage suicide or give people advice on here because it's illegal in most countries and ends in jail time. Maybe the owner @Marquis can speak to this better and that there isn't wiggle room when it comes to the not giving suicide advice rule.

wot? we cant advice on how to kill self?!?! i thought that was the whole point of this forum! could u point me in the direction of these rules please?

Someone else already provided you that so I won't again but you can find all the rules listed under the rules section on the website. Also I tagged an admin/owner who maybe can explain this to you better.

 

[lolfuturecorpse]

I have a personal rule: "never commit suicide over a breakup".
It may sound harsher than I mean it, but breakups happen all the time. If everyone killed themselves because of it only 1% of the entire population would be left by now. Relationships usually come and go, and I am sure you will find new luck in the future. But I understand that you are very hurt right now and think everything is over. But it isn't, at least if this is your only reason you are feeling down.

Whatever your ultimate desicion is, I wish you the best. And I hope you will feel better soon, one way or the other!

I mainly wanted to CTB over a breakup because I know I can't find someone better than him. But thankfully we ended up not breaking up. Everything is okay now. <3

I agree completely. And to the OP, we can't really give you tips on how to CTB or what to do. You can check out the resources section though. Aside from that you likely won't find anyone giving advice on how to CTB. It's actually against the rules here. Like many have said if you want to talk all of our inboxes are open & many of us can relate. I don't think you should make this decision during such a traumatic time either. It seems very impulsive and urgent feeling which isn't going to give you a peaceful exit. Also you will learn that you don't need any other human being to live (not saying overall, I'm speaking to needing one specific person) and that time will heal the pain that feels so raw right now. I can promise you that. Whatever choice you make you will be in my thoughts.

My apologies. I mainly just wanted emotional support, but I hope this post serves as just a warning for me. I have read and understood the rules now :)

 

[justpeachy]

I mainly wanted to CTB over a breakup because I know I can't find someone better than him. But thankfully we ended up not breaking up. Everything is okay now. <3

My apologies. I mainly just wanted emotional support, but I hope this post serves as just a warning for me. I have read and understood the rules now :)

Oh no worries, I wasn't referring to you anyways. We all learn! I was referring to the member that had said there must be wiggle room in the no giving advice rule. I am very glad that you chose not to exit if that is what you want. I mean this with all the love in the world but you should really look into therapy or find someone in general to talk to about the unhealthy level of attachment you have with your significant other. It isn't healthy to want to end your life over someone choosing to leave your life. It's not great for you who feels you cannot live without another human being that has free choice and you cannot control so you will never be in full control or them as they often begin to feel very resentful if suicide is mentioned when they are trying to leave the relationship and may stay just because they don't want the person to hurt themselves not because they actually still love the person or want to be there (not saying this is how your other half feels, just a general sentiment about how it often feels to be in a relationship with someone that threatens suicide when the other person is trying to leave for sometimes good reasons). It's overall not going to contribute to your happiness or getting better (if you want) to be part of a codependent relationship and the reality is that codependent relationships are never healthy or good relationships long term. I hope you don't take this personally, just some friendly advice as you had mentioned seeking emotional advice and I have both been there (on both sides, the suicidal one and the other side) and also the therapist in me can't help but try to help if someone is seeking emotional advice. Good luck with whatever happens or whatever choice you make in the future.

 

[Jumping_realms]

I am sorry you are going through this. I wish you peace through any decision you make.

 

[zenn7]

thank you so much, love. i am really in a crisis and distressing mood right now. i really want to get some emotional support until I get the resources for ctb. i don't wanna call any suicide hotline number since they might get someone to check up on me or something. i just wanna leave. I'm too ugly to be in this world. :(

I went on anti depressants to try to keep motivated to finish up things.

 

[lolfuturecorpse]

Oh no worries, I wasn't referring to you anyways. We all learn! I was referring to the member that had said there must be wiggle room in the no giving advice rule. I am very glad that you chose not to exit if that is what you want. I mean this with all the love in the world but you should really look into therapy or find someone in general to talk to about the unhealthy level of attachment you have with your significant other. It isn't healthy to want to end your life over someone choosing to leave your life. It's not great for you who feels you cannot live without another human being that has free choice and you cannot control so you will never be in full control or them as they often begin to feel very resentful if suicide is mentioned when they are trying to leave the relationship and may stay just because they don't want the person to hurt themselves not because they actually still love the person or want to be there (not saying this is how your other half feels, just a general sentiment about how it often feels to be in a relationship with someone that threatens suicide when the other person is trying to leave for sometimes good reasons). It's overall not going to contribute to your happiness or getting better (if you want) to be part of a codependent relationship and the reality is that codependent relationships are never healthy or good relationships long term. I hope you don't take this personally, just some friendly advice as you had mentioned seeking emotional advice and I have both been there (on both sides, the suicidal one and the other side) and also the therapist in me can't help but try to help if someone is seeking emotional advice. Good luck with whatever happens or whatever choice you make in the future.

Thank you sooooo much for the kindest words. I do want to let you know that he ended up not breaking up with me and we are trying to make things work.