Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
As per title. I am like very very meh. Hard to eat. I still do.
Insomnia rages 1on but I still sleep.
This place (where I am living) is making me go fuckin crazy. I have done everything I am able to to cope here. I am so overstimulated.
Luckily I should be moving in a week or so. Finally thinned out the details.
Lacking energy inside like..... ugh just tired.
IT IS HARD HERE. i am struggling so much. Im tired of talking about it. I cope/try to relax etc etc. Yeah i guess I get relief but the only relief is leaving.
Knowing my worth and having to live below it aint it for me anymore....
Struggling so much but im so close to being alone. Eh. Ugh
All my life I've been comtrolled and watched over. Everytime i tried to break away I went through more abuse.
Now I am away from.my abusers and just trying to find my own grounding with life. Always having to adjust SO MUCH for othee people..
I am burnt out. I have kept as calm as I can BUT I AM TIRED OF HERE. No privacy. No control. I cannot deal. It just triggers suicidality even more.
I hate being looked at and discusses multiple times every fucking day. I am sick of it.
Insomnia rages 1on but I still sleep.
This place (where I am living) is making me go fuckin crazy. I have done everything I am able to to cope here. I am so overstimulated.
Luckily I should be moving in a week or so. Finally thinned out the details.
Lacking energy inside like..... ugh just tired.
IT IS HARD HERE. i am struggling so much. Im tired of talking about it. I cope/try to relax etc etc. Yeah i guess I get relief but the only relief is leaving.
Knowing my worth and having to live below it aint it for me anymore....
Struggling so much but im so close to being alone. Eh. Ugh
All my life I've been comtrolled and watched over. Everytime i tried to break away I went through more abuse.
Now I am away from.my abusers and just trying to find my own grounding with life. Always having to adjust SO MUCH for othee people..
I am burnt out. I have kept as calm as I can BUT I AM TIRED OF HERE. No privacy. No control. I cannot deal. It just triggers suicidality even more.
I hate being looked at and discusses multiple times every fucking day. I am sick of it.
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