I’m gonna try and complete all my goals before considering ctb

[m3nhera]

Need motivation/encouragement, I can't die an ugly loser so I want to complete all my goals before I die. The real plan is that by the time all those goals are achieved, I won't even want to die anymore. But it's all so difficult. Maybe I could track progress on here but that's only motivating if anyone cares about my updates. I don't know. Everything just feels so hopeless. Also not sure if this is the place to post gym measurement updates . But like I'm the type of person who struggles to do things for themselves, but if I had to update other people then I'd get off my ass and do it.

 

[fedup1982]

It sounds like a good plan! Just don't overwhelm yourself with too much. It seems to me like you're going to stress yourself out?

 

[mars2027]

What goals do you have?

 

[m3nhera]

It sounds like a good plan! Just don't overwhelm yourself with too much. It seems to me like you're going to stress yourself out?

I am stressed out all the time regardless. Whether I'm super busy or doing nothing.

What goals do you have?

Get dream body(healthily, dw I don't have an ed), get a job, get my license, graduate, and a lot of other things I have in my notes app. I also wanted to move in with my bf eventually and get married and all, but that's years into the future. Same with graduating college. The goals I mentioned earlier are more short term, longer goals are basically just living the rest of my life. But I'm just trying to survive the present. Basically goal is to be hot and financially stable haha. Because right now I'm ugly and broke and still depressed on top of it all. The depression never goes away, I'd rather be hot and depressed vs ugly and depressed. Ironically this stupid illness is what made me let myself go to begin with. I used to go to the gym on a regular basis before another depressive episode grabbed me by the neck. I used to be so snatched it's so heartbreaking . People need to take mental health more seriously, reminds me of a quote I heard, that it will take everything from you until it takes your life.

 

[dreaming]

I don't know how to encourage anyone, but I wish you luck towards your goals.
If you do end up posting updates I'd definitely like to see.
you could probably make a dedicated thread for updates if you wanna post that stuff.

 

[LonelyPrince]

I'm considering doing this aswell. I wish to achieve some things before dying.
Honestly, just go on ahead and use this place as a journal. Lots will support you.

 

[glorp]

best of luck !! remember to take one day at a time, don't overwork yourself <3 be kind and patient with yourself, i'm sure you're doing your best

 

[m3nhera]

I'm considering doing this aswell. I wish to achieve some things before dying.
Honestly, just go on ahead and use this place as a journal. Lots will support you.

Thank you this means a lot to me :)

best of luck !! remember to take one day at a time, don't overwork yourself <3 be kind and patient with yourself, i'm sure you're doing your best

Thank you, I really appreciate how kind everyone is being

 

[MapleS]

GOOD LUCK STAU STRONG CAUSE YOU ALREADY ARE

 

[m3nhera]

GOOD LUCK STAU STRONG CAUSE YOU ALREADY ARE

I'm not strong my parents are making me want to die again as always, it's stupid how much control they have over me

 

[MapleS]

I'm not strong my parents are making me want to die again as always, it's stupid how much control they have over me

still being alive is being fucking strong to me
if you haven't seen them look at pinned resorces at recovery. they are helpful with feeling better :3