Venting I'm gonna CTB soon

[s1u9l0rd]

by the end of this month I'm gonna do it, I've been set on this for months, and I think my time is soon. I've prepared my method, I'm gonna wait at least 2-3 weeks because I'll get the chance to see my family that's across the country one last time. I have disabilities, I can't work or drive, and the only person who's ever put in the effort to love me broke up with me a few days ago, I need to die soon, I've been trying to CTB ever since I was 11 but people always convinced me things would get better, it's getting worse and worse, I'm truly ready to die, I don't want to spend my future alone without being able to drive or work and only having enough money from the government to simply survive with the bare minimum, I can't take it anymore. I need to die soon.

 

[human909]

I am so sorry you have to suffer through that pain. I wish you good luck and hope you find peace soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom from suffering you search for.

 

[billie]

i hope you find peace

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I think you family might "put in the effort to love you" if tried to communicate to them. Someone they can be oblivious because they've been around you your entire life and have taken you for granted. Give it a shot. I hope things get better for you.

 

[depressed-pos]

whatever your future may hold, i hope you may find the peace and comfort you deserve *hugs*

 

[Languish]

You may like/relate to the song "A Poem" by La Dispute. That whole album is relatable to me. I'm so depressed, that basking in something depressing actually comforts me some. When as isolated as we suicidal people tend to be, it's nice having someone or something to relate to..

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Truly sorry for what you are going through and the position you find yourself in, sending you love.