vyvanceandvodka
hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
- Jan 7, 2026
- 209
Hi SaSu! It's been a long time since I've posted here. (:
I got on Prozac about a month ago and I'm happy to report I'm doing better. 2 months ago, I went to the hardware store to buy rope to hang myself. Today I went to the hardware store to buy flowers. I'm improving even if it doesn't feel like it. I'm not where I want to be yet... quite far from it. I still drink, but now my medication only allows me to have 3 drinks maximum or else I get very ill. Which is an improvement from me drinking a 6 pack a day. I will eventually get to 0 drinks! I have more motivation do to things. Life doesn't feel so suffocating. I don't think about killing myself everyday. Maybe once a week lol. But still, that's much better.
I'm in therapy and since I've been medicated, it's actually working.
I'm still depressed and I always will be, but it'll become easier to manage for sure. I need to increase my meds soon since I'm on the lowest dose. I hope to get a job soon and go back to university this fall. I already applied for my classes. I hope I can stick with it and not drop out. That's the REAL test.
Anyways. Thanks for anyone who read this. And if you're thinking about trying medication, talk to your doctor about it. I was unmedicated for so long and it was my lowest point in life. Don't be afraid to reach out if you'd like to try!
♡, vyvanceandvodka
I got on Prozac about a month ago and I'm happy to report I'm doing better. 2 months ago, I went to the hardware store to buy rope to hang myself. Today I went to the hardware store to buy flowers. I'm improving even if it doesn't feel like it. I'm not where I want to be yet... quite far from it. I still drink, but now my medication only allows me to have 3 drinks maximum or else I get very ill. Which is an improvement from me drinking a 6 pack a day. I will eventually get to 0 drinks! I have more motivation do to things. Life doesn't feel so suffocating. I don't think about killing myself everyday. Maybe once a week lol. But still, that's much better.
I'm in therapy and since I've been medicated, it's actually working.
I'm still depressed and I always will be, but it'll become easier to manage for sure. I need to increase my meds soon since I'm on the lowest dose. I hope to get a job soon and go back to university this fall. I already applied for my classes. I hope I can stick with it and not drop out. That's the REAL test.
Anyways. Thanks for anyone who read this. And if you're thinking about trying medication, talk to your doctor about it. I was unmedicated for so long and it was my lowest point in life. Don't be afraid to reach out if you'd like to try!
♡, vyvanceandvodka
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