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tryptamine
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- Jul 11, 2024
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Hello, everyone. I've always been extremely ugly (I've been rated as 0-1/10 online), and my appearance has caused me immense pain and suffering my entire life. Since childhood, I've been relentlessly bullied and harassed, called ugly and other insults every day. In middle and high school, the bullying got even worse. I was physically abused, tortured, had my things stolen or broken, stuff thrown at me, firecrackers shoved in my clothes, and was followed and beaten up on my way home. I used to skip school and pretend to my parents that I was there while I actually walked in the woods, waiting to go home. But then the teachers told my parents I was missing, and they forced me to go to school. My parents never supported me or understood my struggle, they just brushed off everything and told me I needed to go to school and study. This psychological and physical torture went on until I was 16 and finished high school. Now, I've been a NEET for almost four years. I have no hope or future. I can't get even a minimum-wage job because of my looks and I can't support myself. I will never know what it's like to receive anything other than pain and suffering from social interactions. I never had a single friend, no one has ever shown me kindness or appreciation. I'm a hideous monster that needs to be destroyed. I don't belong in this world, anywhere or anyhow. Nowadays, I stay inside my house most of the time, but on the rare occasions I do leave, random strangers on the streets harass and make fun of me unprovoked. People even take pictures and record videos of me, which has happened on numerous occasions. I am so ugly that I don't belong in society. No one would want to talk to me or have anything to do with me. My repulsive face causes disgust to everybody. And all of this is because of something I didn't choose and have no control over. It's very painful to realize that all I can really do is just keep rotting in my house for my entire life. Lately I've been extremely depressed and I can't enjoy any hobbies or activities. All I do is just sleep as much as possible, since sleep is the only escape from my horrible life. Not sure how much longer I can take this.