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NyxCascade

NyxCascade

Heart Eater
Jul 30, 2025
36
Guys im out of earth for real, its my birthday tomorrow, gonna pop a few (defo more than a few) pills and drink some vodka and hopefully i somehow die in my sleep because trust me, I am NOT living till 20.
I love you all, take care everyone!
Every single person on here has a piece of my heart.
Peace out 🖤
 
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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based Gigachad"
Aug 8, 2022
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OP do not do this you will just be sending yourself to the ER
 
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NyxCascade

NyxCascade

Heart Eater
Jul 30, 2025
36
OP do not do this you will just be sending yourself to the ER
Howd you mean? I thought it would definitely do more damage than that? I have propranolol that i was prescribed and i have over 40 tablets i mean 2 which i take daily already makes me feel like im about to faint so wont it basically stop my heart or some shit?
 
U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based Gigachad"
Aug 8, 2022
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It's a gamble. Most Rx drugs are generally not going to kill people at an amount that can be tolerted by the digestive system
Even not vomiting them doesn't guarantee you will die. Propranolol has an estimated LD50 of about a half gram per kilo of body weight. Meaning you would need several grams' worth of the actual, pure drug—not the physical pill—to likely even approach a lethal dose.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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@U. A. lol that's like 100 months for me. Not that I was considering it
 
NyxCascade

NyxCascade

Heart Eater
Jul 30, 2025
36
It's a gamble. Most Rx drugs are generally not going to kill people at an amount that can be tolerted by the digestive system
Even not vomiting them doesn't guarantee you will die. Propranolol has an estimated LD50 of about a half gram per kilo of body weight. Meaning you would need several grams' worth of the actual, pure drug—not the physical pill—to likely even approach a lethal dose.
How about taking maybe 4 pills then drinking like a full bottle of vodka whilst laying in the bath?
I read an article about it a bit ago this guy drowned by drinking excessively and laying in a bath, would that work? Also thank you for explaining that to me, definitely do not want to wake up in hospital tomorrow. I just want it to be over with.
 
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Nov 20, 2025
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How about taking maybe 4 pills then drinking like a full bottle of vodka whilst laying in the bath?
I read an article about it a bit ago this guy drowned by drinking excessively and laying in a bath, would that work? Also thank you for explaining that to me, definitely do not want to wake up in hospital tomorrow. I just want it to be over with.
I think chances of success are low, not 0, but low, chances of getting up in the hospital are there :(
 
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FuneralCry

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I hope you find peace.
 
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praythestars

Member
Jan 11, 2026
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Guys im out of earth for real, its my birthday tomorrow, gonna pop a few (defo more than a few) pills and drink some vodka and hopefully i somehow die in my sleep because trust me, I am NOT living till 20.
I love you all, take care everyone!
Every single person on here has a piece of my heart.
Peace out 🖤
Terrible idea, OP. Like the other poster said, the risk of failure by doing this is extremely high. The chance of dying is slim, and the "best" outcome is nothing happens except you feel shitty, with a high risk of someone noticing or you eventually calling for help not because you get scared but because you feel like dogshit and realize nothing is happening outside of feeling like dogshit. You're signing yourself up for a very high risk of getting a psych hold and all the fallout that comes with it and a very low chance of successfully CTB.
 
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NyxCascade

NyxCascade

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Jul 30, 2025
36
After the comments on this post, I decided to not do anything last night.
I hope you guys are all well!
Happy birthday to me I guess lol.
 
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Glad to hear you're still with us OP.

Happy Birthday!! Hope each day is better than the last!
 
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