
StrugglingSienna
Suicidal Trans Girl
- Mar 16, 2025
- 187
I have been so dysphoric and suicidal for quite some time despite a decent life situation. Every time I go to my psychiatrist I tell her this stuff isn't working and thankfully she listens but it always ends up being to put me on another SSRI. So far I've been through escitalopram, fluoxetine, etc etc and I'm tired of this stuff. I only see her once every three months but I need to try some new things fast if I want to have any chance at saving my life.
My working plan is to order a one month supply of at least one drug in each antidepressant class off of an online pharmacy and trialing each of them to see if any of them benefit me greatly. Based on previous experiences with online pharmacies this will be surprisingly inexpensive. I'm particularly curious about the tricyclics, as apparently they seem to work pretty well, they were just supplanted by SSRIs because SSRIs have fewer side effects.
I'm going to try to be careful, obviously, and make sure not to try anything that has dangerous interactions with my other prescriptions. And probably order my own lab tests too depending on the drug.
I'm kinda spitballing here. I can sense that my life is in danger and I'm going to take matters into my own hands. At the end of the day, I want to CTB anyways, so what's the harm? Has anyone else here done or thought of doing something similar?
My working plan is to order a one month supply of at least one drug in each antidepressant class off of an online pharmacy and trialing each of them to see if any of them benefit me greatly. Based on previous experiences with online pharmacies this will be surprisingly inexpensive. I'm particularly curious about the tricyclics, as apparently they seem to work pretty well, they were just supplanted by SSRIs because SSRIs have fewer side effects.
I'm going to try to be careful, obviously, and make sure not to try anything that has dangerous interactions with my other prescriptions. And probably order my own lab tests too depending on the drug.
I'm kinda spitballing here. I can sense that my life is in danger and I'm going to take matters into my own hands. At the end of the day, I want to CTB anyways, so what's the harm? Has anyone else here done or thought of doing something similar?