Im back, its getting bad again.

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I'm really close to getting a boyfriend and I feel horrible about it. Every time I get close to someone, I lose them. I try to love them and take care of them but I end up fucking up and pushing them away and they leave me. I just assume I'm unlovable at this point. Who do people who are obviously so amazing keep coming to me? I'll only make their lives worse. I just want to die so no one ever has to deal with me ever again.