Venting I'm a worthless nobody, that nobody cares about.

[ArtPendragon13]

I have no friends. To be honest I don't know how to make any. I've been friendless for about 9 years, I'm 19. So I've haven't had a friend since elementary. Nobody cares about me, no matter how hard I try, or reach out. It always ends in failure. People are just being nice, but they really couldn't care less. I was fine being alone for a while, but at some point it just got so tiring. A person that I thought was my friend, said that nobody gives a shit, and I should do it on my own. Recently, there was a Q&A at the church I go to. The questions were asked anonymously online beforehand. My question was does God forgive sucide? There were four religious leaders there, one said yes, two said idk, and the major one(Pastor) said no. But, they were kinda in agreement that, it's your fault for feeling like that, and that nobody cares.

 

[katara]

That's why I stopped caring about church, I never felt welcome

 

[Hollowman]

I'd never go to that church again. I'm friendless too.

 

[Off_Switch]

All life is worthless when you really think about it..

 

[jonsantorni]

It's definitely not your fault. You're only 19. And I agree, people always act like they care. They always say how you should talk to someone but most people don't wanna hear it. I've had a good experience with a pastor being understanding and a good friend though so maybe that church isn't a good place

 

[bluevalentine]

hii ive still been new to the platform but im 20 and down to chat ofc i dont think i even have the privileges yet as a account lmao but anyways im not on here too much. i do care about abt others and willing to listen to different experiences. :) i can see how people will only come across as empathetic tho even if its a mask so it sucks. maybe u think im fake too but yea i get it, its up to ppls views

 

[kufajoy]

I practiced Islam until I was 20 and believed in god blindly. I'm 26 now and never did a single prayer in my last 6 years. God is dead believe it or not ;)

 

[tomame]

i would hope He does .. but, in all honesty .. Him not accepting it is the only thing still keeping me alive. the uncertainty.