Venting If you're looking for a pain-free way to CTB, this site is useless

[jackdotty]

I agree. Why keep someone in consistant pain under the false hope that everything will magically get better? What if the standards of society are contributing to why people want to die? "Thats just how it is!" The life mongers tend to shout to us, as if we should just accept what makes us miserable.

And yes, it is becoming more difficult to find means to die peacefully while the painful methods are only prevented when its disruptive to society's movements, such as jumping in front of a train....yeah how dare we ruin people's normal day in their go lucky happy lives lol.

Life mongers, haha that's too good.

 

[Sunshine]

Hobos on the street get their hands on heroin and fent. If they can do it what stops you if you REALLY want to die?
Maybe you need to ask around. But it's entirely possible, especially for heroin.

 

[mrpeter]

this site is basically just for venting about wanting to kill yourself without ever actually killing yourself
if you don't live in a country that offers assisted suicide for mental problems you're fucked

The body is truly a cage for the soul.

The thing is, true painless methods cannot be vocalized. Because then this site would be deemed a pro suicide site and get shut down. Lostallhope almost got shut down for that just for telling people about noble gasses and painless asphyxiations.

A gun can do it. But most people like us are under a 5150, making it impossible to get a gun unless you find a real sleazy private gun trader in the under world and hope they arent a cop.

Drugs are the next thing, and of course they were made almost impossible to get in terms of them causing painless death. Even fentanyl is cut nowadays to prevent an easy way out. Sickening, isn't it?

What they won't tell you is that certain combinations will work. The most popular being taking drugs with alcohol and do a large drop off a tall cliff or building, since alcohol and drugs will kill your survival instincts. BUT too much will knock you out.

The other issue, and this me personally, is that some of us want to die privately. When I had an allergic reaction and couldnt breathe, people were LAUGHING in the emergency room, staff and patients alike.

Every time someone wants to jump off a freeway here, these car brain morons will tell the guy to jump so they can continue their 9-5 wage job or commission. Suicide in the public eye is seen as a comedy and only a tragedy to those who care about you. Society is sinister like that.

So if you want to die privately and painlessly? You will have to find a way to do that and its almost impossible.

I would love to die in a flower field, under a moonlit sky, and a endless horizon. I do not want my body found for years. I rather it rot in nature.

if that as the case this website would have already gotten shut down already

 

[simplyshmee]

that isn't at all what this site is for....so....
Even still there are plenty of methods in these forums.
Plenty of accounts and opinions as well.

 

[simplyshmee]

this site is basically just for venting about wanting to kill yourself without ever actually killing yourself
if you don't live in a country that offers assisted suicide for mental problems you're fucked

if that as the case this website would have already gotten shut down already

That isn't at all what this site is for.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

The only option left for me is an "adrenalized" method - scary or painful. Jumping off a tall cliff (at night and with covering over the eyes) or drowning. Yes, sounds awful ... but the alternative is ...WHAT EXACTLY? I have no choice.

Not a suggestion, but what do you think of charcoal? Is that scary or painful? Also considering inert gas + exit bag for myself. Maybe partial hanging.

 

[nobody3457]

Idk death is almost always painful, even when people die of old age, it doesn't look pleasant at all. Dying from anything, from accidents, from overdose, from animals, from cancer or any other illness, there is always pain involved. Imagine dying of cancer how much you suffer.. yet that's one of leading cause of death. So just imagine that all those people that wanted to live had to fight cancer for, sometimes, years. Pain everyday of that.

 

[AnderDethsky]

I once had such thoughts, in that sense, although I would not say about uselessness - this site, first of all, is a very stable and specialized community, . When I needed to describe to the moderators why I wanted to register here, I wrote that here is the place where it would be quite possible to talk about the topic, namely suicide, first of all

- Without odious banners on 70font size with hotline numbers
- Religious intimidation from believers
- without pro-life Bias

If somewhere you can find a discussion of suicide without the first two, then the third will almost always be present, because this is a universal fearful taboo topic, about which no one will even think to talk about it as about some kind of disease, and in no case to talk about it in any other key, except prevention.

The second, important for me personally, if your ultimate target is CTB, this site can have an inspiring effect.
Why do you think the media always talks so little about someone's suicide? Because it will be easier for others to do it. People are so designed that they can do something when they see a worthy example next to them. Accordingly, the media needs to discredit the person as much as possible in the context of the news about suicide, so that each of us would disdain to follow his example.

Here, when someone says goodbye, it is discussed in a completely different way. Look, for example, at the case with Atheist Joe, "All the best to you there" "Rest in peace" "You are a brave soul"

You see a successful example of ctb, and you also see a reaction of universal understanding and empathy towards you. Yes, we are social creatures, and even such a form of , very excuse me ,"approval" of the behavior that you would like to adhere to can have a striking effect on your motivation to ultimately act as you wanted before.

 

[coolgal82]

every method is either easy to obtain, painless, or effective. none are all three and very few are two of them.

 

[Worndown]

Pain free methods involve passing away in your sleep. Everything else will come with some sensation.
Realistic expectations are important.

 

[RainyDaysGrapefruit]

There is no such thing as a 100% known to always be painless fast and completely accessible method to CTB. But that's alright. Nothing is ever completely certain in life, and that includes CTB methods. On the topic of "virtually impossible" though, it's pretty well known that concentrated SN is incredibly poisonous to consume...

 

[NegevChina]

Most methods will be painful to some extent and in various degrees. A shot to the head will probably hurt, maybe not for long, but would hurt for a split second before it reaches the brain stem I assume, if you are even lucky enough to hit it, if not, then it will hurt for longer and be more painful probably. I guess N might not hurt, but almost nobody can access N. The biggest pain point with SN for me is the vomiting, which will most likely hurt if you handle throwing up poorly like me. Every method that's «accessible» has a risk of being painful or uncomfortable. Personally, I'd rather vomit a last time or take the risk of missing the brain stem, than to deal with the pain and panic of drowning or the panic and suffering of maybe failing or excecuting a hanging attempt poorly and risking permanent brain/organ damage and becoming a vegetable. I hate physical pain, but there's no other realistic options that are painless.

CO also has the potential of being painless, immediate pass out if done correctly. But unfortunately to many things can go wrong and the risk of brain/organ damage is very high. I have no statistics about success rate. But all methods are a tradeoff between peacefulness and success/SI/pain. Train for instance may be close to 100% success but the SI is near impossible to fight. Jumping may be easier with SI but success is not promised. I guess Im still alive because its harder for me to die than to keep living this hell im in.

 

[I_go_in]

Bro most of the people who don't die when shooting shitloads of fent or taking proper amounts of SN get found/call the ambulance on themselves. Both methods are nowhere near as painful or scary as others. You can def get at the very least an amount of fent need to kill an elephant off the dark web. If you rent a hotel room and shoot up 10mg of fent you'll be dead end of story 100% unless you have been doing H for years already with a massive tolerance. If this is just a bait thread to get people to explain the best method to you then you did a good job as human psychology makes it so people are way more likely to give you good information when you say something abrasive or wrong than genuinely asking. If that's the case then pretty smooth!

 

[Iamchickenhat]

it sounds like you're either trolling or didn't actually read into this site . sn has about an 83% success rate if it's pure enough , you don't vomit immediately (which can be helped by taking an ae) , or if you aren't found and resuscitated . most of the failures from this method have been from people being found and getting help . sn is far from impossible

Hey. Sorry to bug you. I created my account here a few years ago. I was lucky to get on in time to be able to get sn from the largest rainforest online retailer around before they stopped selling it. The seller note in the box said it would be good for 2 years. I was gone from here for about a year talking to a friend I made from here. We both tried to help each other not die. Well now my sn is expired and I can't get ANYONE here to give me a source. There's still gotta be a source somewhere. Can you help me? Can you point me in a direction of someone who CAN help me?

If I lose my housing, my dog will become homeless. I will become homeless. I live in the desert in the USA. It gets over 110°f in the summer. Part of my disability requires climate control. I can't get too hot. I will have to kill myself.

And no one here will help. Will you please help?

 

[Leiot]

There is no such thing as a completely effective method. There's always the chance you'll survive. Sometimes it's pretty low (shotgun). Peacefully? Your body is going to fight against you every step of the way. A doctor could probably come up with some combination of drugs but when you're doing an assisted suicide there's usually a doctor or someone monitoring you to make sure it does the job. When we try it on our own..

 

[supergold#2]

Hey. Sorry to bug you. I created my account here a few years ago. I was lucky to get on in time to be able to get sn from the largest rainforest online retailer around before they stopped selling it. The seller note in the box said it would be good for 2 years. I was gone from here for about a year talking to a friend I made from here. We both tried to help each other not die. Well now my sn is expired and I can't get ANYONE here to give me a source. There's still gotta be a source somewhere. Can you help me? Can you point me in a direction of someone who CAN help me?

If I lose my housing, my dog will become homeless. I will become homeless. I live in the desert in the USA. It gets over 110°f in the summer. Part of my disability requires climate control. I can't get too hot. I will have to kill myself.

And no one here will help. Will you please help?

here's a good jumping off point for reactivity:

https://pubchem.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/compound/Sodium-nitrite

but basically as long as it's kept airtight, dry and dark, it does not expire. if it comes into contact with moisture (seeing that you like somewhere humid), it will slowly convert to sodium nitrATE (+ various nitrosamines in small amounts) and will begin clumping. afaik, nitrAtes are also usable for SN method, you just have to adjust dosing/protocol.

see pubchem article for further links or references, as i cannot ensure it has not had any external reactivity which could influence its chemical composition.
sorry i couldn't be more help!

 

[skatergirl]

W

There is no such thing as a 100% known to always be painless fast and completely accessible method to CTB. But that's alright. Nothing is ever completely certain in life, and that includes CTB methods. On the topic of "virtually impossible" though, it's pretty well known that concentrated SN is incredibly poisonous to consume...

What are the odds that it will work

 

[Iamchickenhat]

here's a good jumping off point for reactivity:

https://pubchem.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/compound/Sodium-nitrite

but basically as long as it's kept airtight, dry and dark, it does not expire. if it comes into contact with moisture (seeing that you like somewhere humid), it will slowly convert to sodium nitrATE (+ various nitrosamines in small amounts) and will begin clumping. afaik, nitrAtes are also usable for SN method, you just have to adjust dosing/protocol.

see pubchem article for further links or references, as i cannot ensure it has not had any external reactivity which could influence its chemical composition.
sorry i couldn't be more help!

Thank you very much for that. And I actually live in the desert, so it's pretty UN humid, but I really do appreciate that

Thank you very much for that. And I actually live in the desert, so it's pretty UN humid, but I really do appreciate that

Also, the link didn't work for some odd reason, but I appreciate your response

 

[needthebus]

There are some forums in tor that can lead you the right way. But you really gotta be careful about who you talk to. If isnt feds, it could likely be a total creep that is into disgusting crap.

I'm wondering if you're a fed and just trying to discourage that person.