Discussion If you had everything you ever wanted, would you still be suicidal?

[stoplmp]

This thread is more of a discussion so everyone can vent a little about what makes them suicidal, and if that problem was solved, if they still would be suicidal. I will read everyone's answers.

If you had the chance to make your dreams come true, if you could be rich, if you could be someone important, have the job you ever wanted, the cars you ever wanted, the person you ever wanted and everything you can even think of-


Would you still be suicidal?

 

[Dark Moon]

Well, autism is not curable even with having everything in the world. Also, genetics are not either and I would still be suicidal.

 

[SmallKoy]

I think I would. I can't really say what the root cause of it is for me, but I think a big part of it is guilt and self hate. Also getting older and thinking about the future makes me really anxious and suicidal.

 

[ToastInTheShell]

Hard to say. My situation right now is very comfortable, I often feel guilty for feeling the way I do.

I think that I'd find a way to make myself unhappy no matter what. Feels like it's in my DNA.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I really hope not, but then again it's just not realistically possible for me to have everything I want so I really don't know.

 

[jeni-chan4]

I would be. It is this world I no longer want to live in. I cannot change the world.

 

[lita-lassi]

if i had better brain chemistry and my family actually communicated like humans, yeah id probably be a lot better off lol

 

[LunarLight]

Hell no. If I could have a functional brain, I wouldn't be suicidal.

 

[imdoneforreal]

no, I would not. I had everything I could have ever wanted before I was injured in a freak accident during dental work. I had what I wanted because I worked my ass off for it. And then life just kicked me back down. I don't deserve to be here obviously. Or if I do, I don't deserve to be happy or healthy. The first half of my life was stolen from me. I won't let the second be stolen in a completely different way. I have to have control over it.

 

[sserafim]

I don't want anything out of life; I don't want a career, partner, children, family or house. That's the life script for most people and it just doesn't appeal to me. It seems so pointless. I want to be a trust fund kid or nepo baby. I want to have unlimited money. I want to be a NEET and stay young forever. I don't want to age past 25 or have to work for a living. Work is modern day slavery, and it's something that I want no part in. I want everything (money, travel) without having to put in any effort

 

[LaVieEnRose]

No

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes .

I don't want anything from this evil life and evil world.

I only want a guaranteed suicide method to exit this evil world and evil life

 

[LuvMeMusic]

I would.

 

[Saturn_]

I'd love life if I had the few things I wanted, but those few things are impossible. I will never not want to die.

 

[mainlanders_son]

I want my pre-anhedonic mind back.

 

[vitbar]

I don't know. I'd hope not, but my suicidality largely comes from my depression. People with everything can still get depressed and want to die. It is complicated though because the lack of socialising and similar definitely worsen the depression.

I'd probably want to less often.

 

[lqpbxeuh]

Yes. Nothing feels worth it.

 

[Z-A]

I'd probably stay for a bit longer since one of the main reasons I'm suicidal is because I don't have the most important things to me and many people I've lost contact with moved on with their lives that I once were close with.

But wanting a peaceful CTB method would still be in my mind anyways, there are other things that can't be solved. This would be temporary.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that I've ever wanted in my case is to permanently not exist, if it was up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all and if I was eternally unconcious of course I wouldn't be able to wish for death as I won't have the ability to. To me existence is beyond undesirable in every way possible, there's no value in suffering in this meaningless, pointless existence.

The fact that life even exists in the first place is such a terrible tragedy to me, I've never wanted to exist and I never would have chosen existence. To have the ability to exist as a human is the most futile, torturous burden, I despise this hellish world where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented.
I'd be glad to not exist, existence is evil to me as it's the source of all suffering, I'd always prefer the peace of eternal nothingness to decaying from age in this existence that caused nothing but harm in the first place, only an dreamless eternal sleep where all is forgotten about would be ideal to me, it's better that existence is erased.

 

[henry22]

I would not. The things missing from my life are essentially material.

 

[rockn360]

no, economic stability and a loving supporting partner I would be fine

 

[DepressedDude]

I wish money could buy happiness but I'm beyond that. If that's all your problems are don't think too much about the meaning of life and you should be fine, because if you go looking you'll find the answers you wish never wanted.

 

[I_am_Lo]

This thread is more of a discussion so everyone can vent a little about what makes them suicidal, and if that problem was solved, if they still would be suicidal. I will read everyone's answers.

If you had the chance to make your dreams come true, if you could be rich, if you could be someone important, have the job you ever wanted, the cars you ever wanted, the person you ever wanted and everything you can even think of-


Would you still be suicidal?

If we are talking in a "if you could wave a magic wand" context that they use in therapy, then no, I probably wouldn't, because I'd either be happy, with no problems, brain damage, nothing, id just be happy with my partner, I'd have just enough to afford fun and minor luxury, but not enough to lose my head and become gluttonous and greedy, I'd have a nice home that was paid for and no bills, I'd have everything any sane adult would wish for in life, and have the mental attitude to go with it, I'd be charitable and kind, I'd help out others and make a real effort to change the world because my voice would mean something to people.

If we are talking in a more realistic sense, I probably would, because you cant just take away brain damage, or adhd, and it takes years, possibly even decades to recover from bpd- if ever done, however, perhaps in this more realistic sense, I am listened to and offered real help, instead of seeing someone for 10 minutes every month because im on a waiting list to actually be seen by a psychiatrist for what feels is the millionth time in the past 5 years.

Perhaps my friends wouldn't use me for money and things, perhaps I wouldn't get ignored when I talk.

 

[stoplmp]

After reading everyone's answers, I think it's my turn now.

I would still be suicidal. Things won't make me happy. If I ever got to the point of making my dreams come true, be a job that I want or someone I wanted to be with, once I did it I wouldn't have anything more to go after, and even so, my dreams still wouldn't make me happy or fix my screwed up brain.

They also are unreachable for me talking in reality terms.


I just don't like living (as a human) at all. I don't feel like completing years of my life studying, only so then I can study more and more to be able to get a job, and then working for 40+ years only so I can get old and then die.

This is life for me. For someone who doesn't have goals, someone who doesn't believe in humanity anymore, who doesn't have reachable dreams, and even if I got to them it still wouldn't mean anything for me.

I'd rather just "cut this bullshit" and finish it all already. That's what I'm doing.

 

[sserafim]

I just don't like living (as a human) at all. I don't feel like get[ting] a job, and then working for 40+ years only so I can get old and then die.

This is life for me. For someone who doesn't have goals, someone who doesn't believe in humanity anymore, who doesn't have reachable dreams, and even if I got to them it still wouldn't mean anything for me.

I'd rather just "cut this bullshit" and finish it all already. That's what I'm doing.

Same. It seems so meaningless to me. What's the point of working your life away if you're going to die anyway?

 

[notevenhere]

What I really want is a whole person who has his own autonomy so I don't think I can get what I want even if I had him. I mean, I already had him. He already had me. We did try. It didn't work and it's crashing me. I wish this was your run of the mill heartbreak but it's not. you see, my family is shit. my physical health is shit. my mental health is shit. i have too much trauma you can't reverse. i can easily find a relationship and several men to fuck with online but why does it matter when the only person keeping me alive wants nothing to do with me?

 

[outrider567]

You can't bring back the dead

 

[Tesha]

I had everything I wanted.. materialistically, financially, family etc. The problem for myself is I also had things I didn't want… mainly childhood abuse.

I lived most of my life in a very privileged manner, I remembered my abuse, but it didn't overwhelm me; I was a functioning and fully productive individual.

That changed 4 years ago - when the memories were reawoken and my CPTSD really kicked off. So living happily is not just about getting the things you dream of, it's about not being subjected to things that destroy us.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I wouldn't be suicidal anymore because, if I had everything that I ever wanted, I would sleep one day and never wake up again (i.e. I'd be dead during my sleep peacefully and eternally)

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I didn't suffer a big failure a few years ago and I would be rich now - in a way so that I would have been financially secure for the rest of my life I wouldn't be suicidal at all. Everything would be perfect only the financial situation makes me suicidal.