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If you had access to all methods which would you choose?
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I'm looking for a large helium or nitrogen tank that's pure. It's seems impossible to find, since I know they now air air, too. Any direction on where to get pure helium or nitrogen in a tank large enough to CTB?
I'm looking for a large helium or nitrogen tank that's pure. It's seems impossible to find, since I know they now air air, too. Any direction on where to get pure helium or nitrogen in a tank large enough to CTB?
Thanks! And yeah, it kinda is... it started off as a journal entry until I had some insight.
I haven't been at it for a while since remembering my past and knowing how to phrase some things properly is a very tricky process, but I think while I'm off work for a week, I should go back into it.
I want N very badly, I dream of being able to just lie down to sleep. Maybe someone can even be there to hold me before I go.
I've found some sellers on DW marketplaces for powder but I don't know if it's legit (they have good reviews for other substances) and I'm trying to figure out how to calculate how much I'd need to go. If I can't get it I'll have to look into fentanyl I guess. Or SN, but SN sounds unpleasant.
I like the idea of the inert gas method however I have not gone for it as it would raise to many questions with the friends I live with and who are looking after me, I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up.
I have my method arriving by post hopefully soon, I'm reluctant to discuss it on an open forum by I will be happy to answer over private message
Helium, which is what I will choose if I fail to find SN in my country . I am a heroin addict and have OD multiple times and it really is not that pleasant.
SN goes wrong a lot? I know people mostly vomit and they advise a second glass to drink right down to make sure you get as much SN as possible.
When I'm ready to CTB I am between that, Charcoal or Monkshood (Aconite) poisoning. Unless another method appears to be favourable of course.
I'm still gonna go for the yew. Too many methods, imo, are rather lacking in personality or spirit. Yes, they can be effective, but the way I see it, the reason things are abysmal nowadays is because things are becoming too logical and scientific. Yes, science and analytical stuff is important, but too much of it leads to nihilism, where everything loses meaning and people live and die unfulfilled. To add something that's of a spiritual and holistic element... like plant methods is what brings about healing. And crafting the perfected yew tincture is the one thing that's been giving my life meaning to the point I sorta don't want to die. Not to say I would never kill myself, but it's more of the fact that I don't care about whether I live or die; I just want to live the life I dreamed of for so long, and nothing is gonna stand in my way. And I think everyone should apply to that.
N for me. I'm always wishing that I had N, to me there is nothing more ideal than peacefully passing away and being permanently free from this existence. I envy those with this method so much, if I had it I would ctb as soon as possible. I really hate this cruel nightmare world that makes it as difficult as possible for us to die and denies us the option of peaceful ways to be gone from this world. If I had N it would literally solve everything for me.
N for me. I'm always wishing that I had N, to me there is nothing more ideal than peacefully passing away and being permanently free from this existence. I envy those with this method so much, if I had it I would ctb as soon as possible. I really hate this cruel nightmare world that makes it as difficult as possible for us to die and denies us the option of peaceful ways to be gone from this world. If I had N it would literally solve everything for me.
If I may ask, why isn't the SN method a favourable / substitute method for u? I just want to get your opinions on it because that is the method I am considering.
I'd take anything that would allow me to drift off as peacefully as possible.
I don't necessarily want to go violently, but I don't really have much of a choice at this point either.
If I may ask, why isn't the SN method a favourable / substitute method for u? I just want to get your opinions on it because that is the method I am considering
I believe that those who have access to SN are fortunate as after all it's a reliable poison method. The problem lies in the fact that it's a restricted method. I certainly believe that SN sounds preferable to many of the other methods so no wonder so many wish to obtain it.
I believe that those who have access to SN are fortunate as after all it's a reliable poison method. The problem lies in the fact that it's a restricted method. I certainly believe that SN sounds preferable to many of the other methods so no wonder so many wish to obtain it.
Yeah but if I remember correctly, in one comment on here u said u live in the UK, and others from UK have been able to get it. My question is would u use SN as a method if u had it?
Yeah but if I remember correctly, in one comment on here u said u live in the UK, and others from UK have been able to get it. My question is would u use SN as a method if u had it?
No, it's not that accessible. It's a restricted method that is complicated to obtain and plan. Unfortunately this is just the reality, I think that if it was so easy to get SN then people wouldn't be researching other methods. And also for me trying to order ctb materials online comes with risks.
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