Discussion If you could go back in time what would you change?

[logan]

Aghhhhh I wanted to ask you the same question! So funny! ;D

First, I wish my parents never met or I was never born.

Second, I wish I could deal better with stress when I was a child and a teenager.

Third, I wish I had no eating disorder.

Next, I wish I got help when I was 14 and I started to avoid going to school.

Moreover, I wish I got help when I was 16 and realized sth is wrong with me and told my mum to help me find a psychologist.

Furthermore, I wish I started my psychotherapy when I was 18 (I could but I thought I can help myself on my own) or last year at least.

Finally, I wish I could change but it's not possible. I'm a bad person and it's funny cause all my life all I ever wanted was to be a good person and to help others. I thought I have changed but it was just alcohol that helped me numb my feelings and forget about my disorders.

All in all, there's this song... 'If I could turn back time...' (I think me and Cher have the same disorder).

Maybe it is not too late to realise your wishes ...

 

[rosie93]

Maybe it is not too late to realise your wishes

And live with it till you're 80 or 90? 60-70 more years of this madness? Can you imagine? You can't forget. You can't make it better. So no, thank you.

 

[logan]

And live with it till you're 80 or 90? 60-70 more years of this madness? Can you imagine? You can't forget. You can't make it better. So no, thank you.

I am very sorry that you are in such a bad way.

What you wrote sounded at least as if you could still catch up on what you haven't done.

I wish you in any case that you find a way for yourself.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Honestly, I would probably just kill myself. Yeah I've made a lot of mistakes but it is what it is, that's life and part of being human. The only thing that would make sense IMO is killing myself sooner so a bunch of people don't have to encounter me in their lives.

 

[rosie93]

Honestly, I would probably just kill myself. Yeah I've made a lot of mistakes but it is what it is, that's life and part of being human. The only thing that would make sense IMO is killing myself sooner so a bunch of people don't have to encounter me in their lives.

Same. 10 years ago would have been perfect.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Same. 10 years ago would have been perfect.

Honestly just sorry you can relate. Welcome to the forum, btw.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would go back in time and ctb at an earlier age. Doing this would prevent a lot of suffering I have experienced as things got worse over the years. I have never wanted to be alive and nothing can change that. Life is simply not meant for me. I wish I was never born, my existence is just one big mistake.

 

[imamess]

i did something bad they said but what???

 

[doesntevenmatter]

Everything, lol..

I don't want to get into specifics too much to be honest. I would apply myself more in school in my later school years. I was a smart kid, but now I am a stupid adult because I stopped caring when my mom left. I would have treated my ex better and tried to understand why she was so closed up and in a turtle shell with her emotions rather than getting mad at her when she wouldn't open up to me. I would have kept reading. I would have done whatever it takes to go to college immediately and just pick something and finish so I'd have SOMETHING rather than changing my mind over and over. I would have been way more careful with finances and invested in bitcoin in the beginning lol. There's probably a million other things but this is a good start.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Hindsight is always 20/20.

 

[notfailingagain]

Would go to 2010 and buy 100,000 bitcoins. Get back and see if being filthy rich would make a difference for me.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

Prevent fish from learning to walk on land.