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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favorite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
226
And also maybe why? You can choose not to tell if it's too personal. For me it's the second one since I have a disablity and in constant pain.
 
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Quietist

Quietist

🌹 🗡️
Sep 6, 2024
330
I would choose going back to the age of 14, but only if I could retain the knowledge I have now, to be able to re-do my adolescence, make different choices, and re-do my early adulthood.
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
228
If i can return back in time and preprogram myself to make the best decisions for my life, having kind of an "instinct" instead of memories, then yes i'll restart. I just don't want to remember what i've done because i can't live with that.
 
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Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
373
I would choose voluntary assisted dying, because life's uncertainties are the worst.
 
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so-so2

so-so2

wompwomp
Nov 14, 2025
11
Voluntarily assisted dying because I can't rewind that many times when it comes to trauma
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Destined to die
Nov 1, 2025
287
I would pick voluntary assisted dying. I have no safe moments I can rewind back to.
 
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peacebenow

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Apr 26, 2026
361
turn back in time before causes and conditions have led me here because I am currently unable to get medically aid in dying.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,727
All I could ever hope and wish for is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this terrible, dreadful and torturous existence ever again, to me existence will just always be a mistake that just causes and brings all this dreadful unnecessary suffering.

I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what, I'd never wish to exist rather I just want to cease existing in peace, in this existence so torturous and dreadful non-existence is just all I see as positive and desirable. All I hope for is a death as painless as possible, existence to me will always be an abomination that only ever tortures existing beings and I find it so terrible how a human can suffer in this existence for so long with no limit as to how much they can be tortured just to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, all I want is for this existence to be all forgotten and erased with no more torture and no more suffering.
 
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Lemelonade

Member
May 13, 2026
18
Voluntary assisted dying. Not because I wouldn't live my life differently with the knowledge I have today, but because I just don't want to be in this world any longer.
 
bruised_reed

bruised_reed

Student
Apr 1, 2026
105
Voluntary Assisted Dying. There isn't a point in time that I could turn back to that would help the situation because I realize my tolerance for suffering is not high enough for there to ever be a good outcome. This world is full of suffering.
 
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122uth

122uth

New Member
Aug 17, 2019
3
turning back time wouldn't do any good. ever since childhood i've had a screw loose. i constantly try to change and be a better person but there's something deeply wrong. i could turn back the time to avoid when i hurt others in the past, but it wouldn't change my being broken

reading others' experiences on this site though.. to know i'm cursed from the start and nothing could fix that -- that's preferable to having a specific moment (or several) where things fell apart and to hate the cause of that for the rest of my existence. i feel a little bit grateful now
 
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sandqueen

sandqueen

Member
Jun 1, 2026
18
turn back time. maid wouldn't be any different to suicide in how much it would hurt my sister, which is the main reason i'm still alive. also i wanna experience when i didn't have a fucked up depressed brain. and everything being cared by someone else.

also i want to have the opportunity to talk with my mom with my adult mind (and try to convince her to dump my dad while at it) learn about her experiences first-hand. it would be nice if i could convince my mom i'm an adult at mind and have the adult conversations i never can have now
 
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Black Sheep One

Black Sheep One

Student
Mar 4, 2023
118
I would go back in time. I would make sure my parents never conceive me. I would make sure my parents never met.
 
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phantasmagoria

phantasmagoria

Member
Nov 17, 2025
54
Voluntary assisted dying. Going back in time wouldn't change my life or my desire to ctb as a lot of the reasons I want to ctb are beyond my control. It's not about making the right choices
Nevermind (after reading the reply above me), I think I would go back to prevent my conception but then I wouldn't exist which would mean I wouldn't be able to prevent my conception. So, I don't think I can do it myself. Someone else has to; but then, after they do it I won't exist anymore and there would be no trigger to initiate the conception-prevention mission (similar problem to what I mentioned earlier). I think it would be a different story if the many-worlds interpretation is true, but I'm not sure.
 
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IWasAlmostHere

IWasAlmostHere

waiting
Jul 26, 2025
5
I am 32. I would go back to 14 if I could bring the knowledge I have now with me, and if my life would take basically the same course just with different outcomes of my (better) outcomes. I'd still go through the hard parts of my life that are natural (grief/loss, my physical illnesses), but I'd just make a lot of different choices to give myself a better chance to get ahead of my depression.
 
CTB set me free

CTB set me free

Chief Commander Cheesy Beef Burrito Supreme
Jul 16, 2025
16
My dream scenario would be that I take my life in a peaceful fashion and then wake up back when I was 21 on spring break after hitting a salvia pipe (I'm 35 now) to realize that the last 14 years were just a crazy salvia hallucination. So ultimately I would go back in time when I was healthier and with the knowledge I have now, I could live a very different and very enjoyable life. Right now I have ME/CFS which is a debilitating chronic l illness that causes crushing fatigue, nerve, muscle, and organ pain, and brain fog and I would like to get better but despite my best efforts, it doesn't seem to be happening, but I would much rather live life in a healthy body than to completely check out, but since I don't have that option, I will probably end up checking out if I get in a perfect storm flare up of intense searing burning pain accompanied with intense thick brain fog that feels like I'm seeing the world through a cloudy fish bowl. These supper intense flares can be avoided if I do basically everything right and stick to the same monotonous boring routine that requires about 18-21 hours of laying in bed per day with still terrible pain and brain fog, but not like the extreme flare up.
 
brainlessretard

brainlessretard

i wish i could erase only the memories i hate
Dec 19, 2021
29
maybe go back in time to when i was 14/15. younger me had potential, but little support. i would like to try again if i retained all knowledge i have today.
 
Enyan

Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
62
Turn back time to November last year before I got the medical test that ruined my life and hope that I'll go with my instinct now and DON'T go through with it. Then I'd be living a happy, healthy life rn
 
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dagger_of_truth

Member
Apr 7, 2026
11
I was from an affair when my dad was in the Navy, and I found out soon after I turned 40, and I still feel like I'm living in the Twilight Zone after almost 4 years. I feel like half of me was switched at birth, even though I love the family I was led to believe is my paternal family. So I would go back in time to when I was 8 years old in third grade, if I'm allowed to give myself specific instructions. That was when I finally started asking my parents if I was "adopted or something", and they would always dismiss it. So I would give instructions that I'm not crazy and to trust other adults, and not give up until I found an adult who was willing to help me figure out my situation, as well as details about how to find my paternal family.
 
rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
241
Voluntary assisted dying. I would have to turn the clock back pretty far to die and even then, I will have already been alive. So yeah. Unless turning back time can also make it so I abort myself before my mother finds out
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,851
You guys realize going back in time means infinite money, right? You can buy stocks, bet on things. Get in early on Bitcoin.

Anyway, I'd absolutely do my life over from high school at least. Maybe earlier. I'd be successful as hell.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
643
Going back in time could definitely solve some problems I'm currently facing. But I know I'll just end up suffering more in the future either way. And I wouldn't have the energy to re live any of the past. I would definitely choose to die.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,585
Voluntary assisted dying. I wouldn't trust that life wouldn't simply go wrong in other ways. Plus, I'm simply tired and want to stop having to experience life and all the effort to sustain it.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Member
Jun 4, 2026
28
And also maybe why? You can choose not to tell if it's too personal. For me it's the second one since I have a disablity and in constant pain.
What if i choose to turn back time to before i was born? What category would that fall under?
 
NeverHis

NeverHis

Student
Jan 14, 2024
128
I'd probably still choose death, but going back to age 10 or so with my current knowledge would be nice. I'd never get orthodontic "treatment" starting the downward spiral on my health, for instance. I'd make different choices in the people I surrounded myself with and not care so much about being left out.
I'd convince my parents to buy stocks in Apple so we'd get rich :pfff:

But on the other hand, there's no guarantee my life wouldn't have fucked itself in other ways, so I think I'd still choose death.
 

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