I just spend my time on here mostly on the suicide section, even know it's all pointless. Suicide is the only subject that I can bear to read about, but I mostly just focus on my own replies as I don't really relate to a lot of the things on here.
Many non suicide topics just make me want to ctb more and makes me feel worse and more tired, so a lot of the offtopic section has to be avoided. In general, life and humans are tiring to me, especially when humans act in an obnoxious attention seeking type way. I cannot stand any form of humour and trolling type nonsense.
And I have absolutely no interest in anything 'recovery' related. The concept of recovery doesn't even exist to me. There is no way to recover from seeing life for what it really is, the word recovery implies that being suicidal is some kind of mental illness so all of that type of stuff is certainly best avoided.