If I were to kill myself, nobody would cared

[zoftchan]

I have no friends, I don't go outside. The only online friends I have ignore me. I've trying making friends with other depressed people,incels,hikikomoris,etc no matter where I go, I get blocked,bullied. Am I too clingy? Too crazy? I don't know why, not even my own family cares/loves me. I have no one. No one loves me, nobody cares for me. I wish I could be seen. I'm always in the shadows

 

[instormdrains]

I'd care :)

 

[nails]

this hit really close to home. i'll be dying unloved and unnoticed, it really hurts. i've tried to make friends and maintain friendships for years now and it all falls apart in the end (if it even starts).
i understand your frustration, everything feels so futile and most people don't understand. i wish i had some advice i could give, but i'm still looking for that advice myself. all i can say is that i hope you find some people who treat you well and cherish you.

 

[zoftchan]

I'd care :)

Thank you so much

this hit really close to home. i'll be dying unloved and unnoticed, it really hurts. i've tried to make friends and maintain friendships for years now and it all falls apart in the end (if it even starts).
i understand your frustration, everything feels so futile and most people don't understand. i wish i had some advice i could give, but i'm still looking for that advice myself. all i can say is that i hope you find some people who treat you well and cherish you.

Thank you so much. I hope you can live well too and make friends. I care for you much love

 

[dreaming]

I can only really think of one relative who could possibly find me, and it'd basically be by accident if they did.
I don't really have any friends either.
If I had to make friends I'd want to be friends with someone who relates, but I'm honestly unsure how to go about making friends who are hikikomori types like myself.
If I know I avoid others, that means others like me are doing the same.
But still, I hope you can find a friend who understands, somehow.

 

[zoftchan]

I can only really think of one relative who could possibly find me, and it'd basically be by accident if they did.
I don't really have any friends either.
If I had to make friends I'd want to be friends with someone who relates, but I'm honestly unsure how to go about making friends who are hikikomori types like myself.
If I know I avoid others, that means others like me are doing the same.
But still, I hope you can find a friend who understands, somehow.

Thank you, I hope you can also find a friend who understands you, I'm guessing you can try image boards?

 

[DeathWish3301]

I have no friends, I don't go outside. The only online friends I have ignore me. I've trying making friends with other depressed people,incels,hikikomoris,etc no matter where I go, I get blocked,bullied. Am I too clingy? Too crazy? I don't know why, not even my own family cares/loves me. I have no one. No one loves me, nobody cares for me. I wish I could be seen. I'm always in the shadows

I'm sorry things are this way for you. Sincerely. I know how it feels, I'm in the same situation.

Not to make it about myself, but if it makes you feel better; I attempted multiple times and ended up in the hospital on several occasions. My family knew and didn't care. Didn't even visit me in the hospital once. So I know for a fact my family doesn't care if I die.

Some people have the unfortunate luck of being born into narcissistic families. I could've written your post.

As far as finding friends online, this wouldn't be a terrible place to try. Gaming online may be another way, or on forums/boards of things you're interested in. Easier to start conversations with people if you have something in common.

 

[zoftchan]

Thank you very much. I'm sorry that Happen to you, I hope you can find people who love you and just saying I care about you and I love you. stay safe

 

[dreaming]

Thank you, I hope you can also find a friend who understands you, I'm guessing you can try image boards?

That's a good suggestion, are there any in particular you recommend?
I used to use some but it was a long time ago, I'm not really familiar with them anymore.
I'd say I could be your friend but I'm not sure if on here is a good place to openly try to make friends or not.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

You matter in this world. I'm sorry you feel the way you do.

 

[Surai]

I think this world is such a sad lonely world when it comes down to death. Nothing is as separating as death is. Or as lonely. And it seems like such a lonely trip to take. The trip of stepping from this life to a non life. It's cold and dark and wet and it seems as though it humbles everyone. Those that thought they were winning or those who thought they were losing. In anything this life likes us to believe.