hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,231
I wish there was a way to save myself from them. But this many years on earth have been more agonizing than rewarding. Everytime I try to run from these demons, they come back stronger. To tell me how silly I have been. I have been so used so lied so betrayed, I have been unwanted always. Always the left out the one that gets bullied and laughed at. I thought there could be a place for me in this world. I am tired of having appointments with the blades to cut my skin through. I am so sick of my head. I can be positive and I can be all optimistic I want but damn, reality kicks and weights me down and drags me to the worst places. I need to convince myself to stop torturing myself with this endless nights and days. I must go, I have how to but I am such a coward. But even cowards don't have a choice at one point.