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sulk

sulk

if beauty is in the inside i wanna see my bones
Sep 30, 2023
105
I'm such a pussy. Too much survival instinct to ctb. Living feels humiliating at this point. And I was just thinking what's stopping me from getting someone to end me instead? Saves me the trouble and anxiety. I guess that'll give me more anxiety, but that doesn't matter, at the end of the day they'll give me what I want and that's what matters.
 
NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
619
I'm such a pussy. Too much survival instinct to ctb. Living feels humiliating at this point. And I was just thinking what's stopping me from getting someone to end me instead? Saves me the trouble and anxiety. I guess that'll give me more anxiety, but that doesn't matter, at the end of the day they'll give me what I want and that's what matters.
I think that only a criminal would agree to end your life. Thats very dangerous to get in contact with any criminal to end your life. Its more likely going to end up in extortion or harassment. Why would any one risk going to jail unless you pay a lot of money. And in that case he'll probably just take the money and disappear rather than risk getting caught.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Mage
Nov 26, 2025
539
I agree with the above comment. What should stop you and give you consideration before trying to do something like this is that you can always be tortured,kidnapped or trafficked. There are much worse fates than death.
 
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cyanlove

cyanlove

looking for my other half (of my skull)
Dec 23, 2021
150
There was a news story about a year or two ago where this exact scenario happened. A girl asked someone to kill her because she was suicidal and too scared to kill herself. The guy sexually assaulted her before killing her. Just a terrible situation.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
151
There was a news story about a year or two ago where this exact scenario happened. A girl asked someone to kill her because she was suicidal and too scared to kill herself. The guy sexually assaulted her before killing her. Just a terrible situation.
There was a more recent story of a woman who met a guy in a fetish room who she paid that agreed to kill her quickly. He tortured her.
 
sulk

sulk

if beauty is in the inside i wanna see my bones
Sep 30, 2023
105
I think that only a criminal would agree to end your life. Thats very dangerous to get in contact with any criminal to end your life. Its more likely going to end up in extortion or harassment. Why would any one risk going to jail unless you pay a lot of money. And in that case he'll probably just take the money and disappear rather than risk getting caught.
I've met lots of insane people online willing to do end me for free. Probably because they're aroused by it which is crazy...but I'm willing to take any risk just to get what I want. Like fuck,,, I'm desperate
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Wizard
Nov 12, 2025
658
I've met lots of insane people online willing to do end me for free. Probably because they're aroused by it which is crazy...but I'm willing to take any risk just to get what I want. Like fuck,,, I'm desperate
If torture & rape (filmed & probably streamed of course… I thought you said you didn't like humiliation?) are fine with you, then by all means, go for it.
 
sulk

sulk

if beauty is in the inside i wanna see my bones
Sep 30, 2023
105
If torture & rape (filmed & probably streamed of course… I thought you said you didn't like humiliation?) are fine with you, then by all means, go for it.
Did I say that's fine with me
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
151
I'm such a pussy. Too much survival instinct to ctb. Living feels humiliating at this point. And I was just thinking what's stopping me from getting someone to end me instead? Saves me the trouble and anxiety. I guess that'll give me more anxiety, but that doesn't matter, at the end of the day they'll give me what I want and that's what matters.
It's not easy for anyone. I'm truly in such brutal physical pain it's torture every second every day. You would think I could do something but I'm not alone I can't drive, go out, I can't even order anything I'm just supposed to lay in bed in pain until I finally die, nothing can be done to help me ill be bedridden until I'm put somewhere I should be allowed to ask for a lethal med or allowed to have help setting up helium but I don't and you don't and it's not your fault. If we were given humane options and allowed autonomy like we should be we wouldn't blame ourselves we would be able to choose not to suffer I wish someone could help but I don't think there are any that could give us N or meds like some doctors like Kevorkian did I do hear there are doctors who quietly do but I'm not lucky enough to find one. I wish I could advertise for one! I'm sorry. I understand you. I wish there was something I could do to help.
 
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