If I could CTB right now I would

[Butterfly-death]

If I had a method right now I wouldn't hesitate to do it. I want to die so bad. I am more afraid of living than I am of dying. Because the worst things may happen to me if I continue to live. It's not fair but I guess life never is; it's cruel and unforgiving. Sometimes I wonder if I deserve to suffer and that's why I'm in this situation where I'm suffering with no way out of it. All I can do is cry and let whatever bad things happen to me, happen. I'm so tired. I'm hurting so much inside and sometimes outside because of chronic pain that happens to me every so often. I hate being alive so much I hope I die everyday why me

 

[Bishop]

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[Feldsparc]

Want to scream. I can't get over my pain. What do I do

 

[SASU-KE]

Want to scream. I can't get over my pain. What do I do

Has there been any resolution or at least the hope of one with your family? I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Maybe one day you can hopefully reunite with them.

 

[Feldsparc]

Has there been any resolution or at least the hope of one with your family? I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Maybe one day you can hopefully reunite with them.

Not yet...living in limbo just hoping I can get them back. I know I don't deserve it but still.... there's nothing else left in my life

 

[zipzamoly1]

If I had a method right now I wouldn't hesitate to do it. I want to die so bad. I am more afraid of living than I am of dying. Because the worst things may happen to me if I continue to live. It's not fair but I guess life never is; it's cruel and unforgiving. Sometimes I wonder if I deserve to suffer and that's why I'm in this situation where I'm suffering with no way out of it. All I can do is cry and let whatever bad things happen to me, happen. I'm so tired. I'm hurting so much inside and sometimes outside because of chronic pain that happens to me every so often. I hate being alive so much I hope I die everyday why me

I understand how you feel. When you mean "worst things may happen" what kind of things do you mean?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I'd be long gone if I had a way to be permanently at peace from this dreadful, torturous existence, all I want is to be free from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I hope you find peace.