If I can't get help or feel better soon, I will CTB

[sometimes.sometimes]

I finally have something a little planned out. I was going to do it soon, but I didn't feel like I was ready. I have an addiction to self-harm and it is really bad. I have been trying to contact my doctors in a last-ditch effort so that I can get help. A part of me already knows nothing will happen, but I just want to give the world and myself one more chance.

While this is going on, I am going to make a more reasonable plan for CTB. I am going to do more research, and I already know some parts of it.

I just want that plan to be ready in the likely case nothing happens.

Do you guys think this is reasonable? Should I CTB soon or give life one more chance?

 

[AShipinthedark]

This sounds perfectly reasonable. You are just managing your options and keeping your coarse...You are just preparing to make a high speed turn in a particular direction...no matter what...buckle up! ^_^

I myself recieved a small, minuscule, tiny amount of hope today, I figure, why not take my chances!?

 

[Hollowman]

Only you can decide.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe it's always a personal decision deciding when to leave this existence that can only be made by the individual, but anyway I wish you the best with your plans.