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uglymisanthr0pe

uglymisanthr0pe

Im actually numb
Dec 24, 2025
16
I was a little high last night mostly on weed and i took some Benadryl. but this really weird thing happened.

The lights were off this whole time. But I could still kinda see myself because the window in my room has its blinds open all the time so the streetlights come in. Last night I started to brush my hair for I don't know how long but I really couldn't stop but a few minutes later my arm started to hurt so I put down the brush and picked up a comb and fixed my side part into a middle part. Then I started putting foundation or something on my face. my face was really white and i could see it clearly even though it was mostly dark in the room. Then I started to stare at myself in the reflection for 30 seconds maybe?? and then my eyes disappeared. Then my face started shifting and moving back and forth at me. My face had formed a white outline. Then I fell onto the mirror and cried i dont even know why. I know this seems like a weird shit show that im making up but I really couldn't control when I was brushing my hair or putting makeup. I dont know what happened. But I did do a little bit of benadryl maybe only 10 pills so i wouldn't twitch in bed when i try to sleep if ykwim.


I just tried it again. Same thing happened my eyes disappeared then the rest of the parts of my face. But I just thought it was a weird that when I look at my face in the mirror right now the same thing happens because that would cross off a hallucination i might've experienced. I remember it all idk why I went to sleep like nothing happened. I'm only just remembering it now

note: i do have minor epilepsy and absence seizures meaning that my hands shake or a zone out sometimes but for me seizures have never been like this.
 
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fruitninjamaster

fruitninjamaster

I love the high of choking myself
Dec 21, 2025
42
... that's crazy, I believe you, but I couldn't tell you what happened. I would say it sounds like a hulucination
 
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uglymisanthr0pe

uglymisanthr0pe

Im actually numb
Dec 24, 2025
16
... that's crazy, I believe you, but I couldn't tell you what happened. I would say it sounds like a hulucination
Yeah i cant even figure out what happened im just so confused thinking about it. Could be a lucid dream but I really felt it and I dont think I went to bed at the time
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
326
I'm too tired to understand properly. Could it have been a sleep paralysis ?
 

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