Venting i'd really like to have a second chance

[mtrx]

because i don't hate life in itself, it's just this life that feels impossible to live.
the world is full of beautiful things and i want nothing more than to see and experience them all and create more of them.
to live through it all, high and low, and grow old. to just have what everyone else has.
i'd really love that, to try again, just without having this evil of an illness ruin all these beautiful things for me.

 

[pumpkins334234]

this is so beautiful and true
i feel exactly the same way as you. i wish my life could be beautiful, at this point all i can do is hope reincarnation is real and i can live a better life next time