I wouldn't be suicidal if I wasn't lonely

[sulk]

I'm so fucking lonely. I have no one in real life. I just live online. I don't see the point in taking my meds anymore. And I talk to men way older than me on the internet and it helps my loneliness so much until I realize they're so far away from me to even meet up with them. It just fucking sucks. If I lived somewhere far away from my family with the man I love I would be the happiest woman. I have no future it's all I want at this point it's disgusting. It's either that or I kill myself. My friends and family think I'm an interesting person when I have no goals or passions accept that shit. I'm so fucking lonely and vulnerable, I'd genuinely be happy if someone just fucking kidnapped me. But, I know I'm genuinely so unwanted for that to even happen. I hate the way my brain thinks, the way I put myself in these risky situations. I have no other choice, it's all I have. Its why I've been continuing to live but I'm slowly losing my patience and my will to live.

 

[SASU-KE]

Just talk to people as much as you can. It helps alleviate the loneliness.

As for the way our brains are wired, yes, there's nothing we can do about that. I too hate the way I feel but I am helpless about it.