
LivingANDDying26
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,468
I think I am already on my way....
The actual planning part I am always hesitant on tho. Butttt that's the final steps. I've been ruminating about this for forever.
I don't think there's any available help/support/programs etc left for me to access. Like there's a lot out there but I am very limited.
I thought or had thought that I needed to fully exhaust myself on this idea of support before even being 'allowed' to plan my death. I have to my understanding. Maybe there's some rocks I have yet to unturn. That doesn't mean I have to stick myself to a shitty existence.
So.... yeah... just like with life... I need the strength to carry this through or I'll just burn out and live the typical (for me) no effort life. I can't take that anymore.
I dunno all this to say that following through with anything like this is a lot.
Dunno my method yet just have my like top 3. Feel incompetent in everyway.
Don't wanna live like this anymore. Can't change much... don't wanna be stuck.
The actual planning part I am always hesitant on tho. Butttt that's the final steps. I've been ruminating about this for forever.
I don't think there's any available help/support/programs etc left for me to access. Like there's a lot out there but I am very limited.
I thought or had thought that I needed to fully exhaust myself on this idea of support before even being 'allowed' to plan my death. I have to my understanding. Maybe there's some rocks I have yet to unturn. That doesn't mean I have to stick myself to a shitty existence.
So.... yeah... just like with life... I need the strength to carry this through or I'll just burn out and live the typical (for me) no effort life. I can't take that anymore.
I dunno all this to say that following through with anything like this is a lot.
Dunno my method yet just have my like top 3. Feel incompetent in everyway.
Don't wanna live like this anymore. Can't change much... don't wanna be stuck.