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Ghost2211
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- Jan 20, 2020
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I'm really not ok. My ex got into a fight with me and said "what's wrong with you". That question was triggering because all of my suicidal issue revolve around things I've been through from him, or how trapped I feel due to him supporting the household. In response I yelled "you". I'm so trapped feeling since if I upset him too much he might kill himself since he's heartbroken I can't forgive his cheating, using me, or leaving me. His bs manipulation just never ends, and I can't get away from his control because I'm afraid for the children's future.
If I didn't have them I would drink the SN right now with zero hesitation. I'm so sad and angry I can't die. He huffed out without even saying a word to the children and they kept asking me if he would ever come back. I'm such a failure. I should be able to provide better for them alone, but I can't.
No, I won't impulse kill myself with kids here. Regardless of how distressed I am I can't be that bad a parent.
If I didn't have them I would drink the SN right now with zero hesitation. I'm so sad and angry I can't die. He huffed out without even saying a word to the children and they kept asking me if he would ever come back. I'm such a failure. I should be able to provide better for them alone, but I can't.
No, I won't impulse kill myself with kids here. Regardless of how distressed I am I can't be that bad a parent.