“i won’t give up on you”

[SalirDeLaMelancolía]

being told the worlds, "i won't give up on you", a few days before you know you're going to CTB brings on a really weird feeling. that isn't to say that it made me doubt myself, i'm still very set on my plan. but still, despite the voice in my head calling BS, i get that harrowing feeling in my chest. it's anger, it's sadness, it's a twinge of happiness, (fuck if i know how that feels anymore), it's shock, it's just too much.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

i dont think ive ever heard those words aimed at me, but damn if i havent said it to at least a few people
and i meant it
in the end *they* left, not me
even my therapist would have given up on me by now if i hadnt gotten a whole new diagnosis or two recently
he might as well have said he was going to
im jealous
not of the predicament, but im jealous you got to hear those words
even if you dont necessarily believe them... i know i would be incapable, too
itd still go a long way