I wish there was, at the very least, support for me (rant)

[leavingsoon99]

I wish that, at the very least, there was some sort of emotional support for ctb. Not to talk me out of it, but to just help still my nerve. This is so hard. I need help to go through with it. I've made up my mind. I don't need 'encouragement'. I'm so sick of the "look at it this way"s and the "maybe if you"s. I want to go. If this world can't bring itself to provide dignified ways to go, the least it could do is provide emotional and mental support for those of us who ARE going to go through with it.

I'm just tired and at a point where I hate humans today.

 

[Source Energy]

I need to still my nerve, too. My ctb is tomorrow this time. I'm crying my soul out. Today is my own funeral for myself.

I really hope I won't chicken out. I need all my strength. I want to offer you support, but I don't know how. I only wish it for both of us...may we get the needed strength and determination to escape this nightmare.

 

[unnormal9]

I wouldn't know where to begin. That's a feeling I have in these cases.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

We should, at the very least, be having real discussions at government level about this, but it'll never happen, at least where I live. Religious fundamentalists have seen to that since suicide is considered a "sin".

Maybe in more forward thinking secular countries people that have long term mental deterioration can have the right to die with dignity. Anybody should have the right, of course, but those with long term mental decline would be a good start. I did read a case about a 29 year old woman in The Netherlands whose euthanasia was sanctioned by the state, but it appears to be few and far between. Nobody should ever have to go through the anxieties of potentially fucking up a suicide attempt and being forced to live the rest of their life with severe disability.

 

[LittleJem]

In the UK the Samaritans will be on the phone with you as you CTB if you want someone there to listen. If you haven't tried calling them, you could see how you find it just to discuss wherever you are at. Some people don't find it helpful, but I find them consistently amazing. They have got me through years of misery and they don't judge. I believe they would just be there with people (UK) as they CTB without calling the police, though I haven't experienced it yet. I would probably call them if I was ready to go through with it to not be alone with it.
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[FuneralCry]

I also find this human species to be so awful, I hate this replusive world where suicide isn't accepted as being a valid option. It's sad how so many people are too delusional to recognise that not everyone wants to exist here, I could never see any benefit to delaying the inevitable just to suffer even more in the process, I really do despise existing and it's not for me. But I really don't think you will find support in this horrible anti suicide society, it's just the unfortunate reality that other people wish to make us prisoners to this existence and slaves to our suffering.