yeah I'd love it if something could make this choice for me, at least I think I would. that being said, I've had close calls in my life before and honestly in those moments I desperately did Not want to die, maybe it's the automatic survival instinct? Even if I was miserable at the time, when the moment came down to the question of whether I'd be able to stick around or not I found myself clinging on to whatever stupid little hopes & dreams I still have for here.
but yeah, for at least right now, I'd love it if a meteor just hit earth and we could all get off this pointless ride together. but again that's just for now, that could change tomorrow lol, and I'll be praying nothing bad ever happens to me and that I live forever again. I'm such a moody dork. but right now I just want this to end. I want it all to end.