Venting i wish i was better

[finallyicanendit]

I wish I didn't have any dental issues and I wish life was just a little easier for me. I really wanna live, I had all these big dreams, all these places i wanted to go to, but it's all a waste now. I am rotting and there isn't anything I can do to stop it. it's really unfair how no matter how hard you try things never work out for you.
I really wish I could have lived a normal healthy life, a part of me still believes I deserve to live the life I always dreamed of. But I know better. its all futile now.

 

[Rayzieka]

There's always a chance. Wishing you well.

 

[Bot]

i can relate too well to this, i think also that way..
i had huge dreams, and tbh, at. the beginning everything seemed to be possible, had good results but at some point it turned into the exact opposite way, i feel like trying harder than most people i know, yet nothing works out.. i try my best to be a good person but what i get is hatred.. its depressing, and there is always coming new issues and problems, i wonder why i even try at all, its like being stuck in one of these hamster wheels or in quicksand.. its all pointless...

 

[finallyicanendit]

i can relate too well to this, i think also that way..
i had huge dreams, and tbh, at. the beginning everything seemed to be possible, had good results but at some point it turned into the exact opposite way, i feel like trying harder than most people i know, yet nothing works out.. i try my best to be a good person but what i get is hatred.. its depressing, and there is always coming new issues and problems, i wonder why i even try at all, its like being stuck in one of these hamster wheels or in quicksand.. its all pointless...

I was academically gifted when I was younger, but the moment I turned 15 everything went down hill and it still hasn't gotten better. I have honestly given up on hope for the most part. I prayed to god for daysssss, begged and cried in his wake, but it still back fired for me. honestly it feels like I was never meant to live longer than this.

 

[obliviousatbest]

I hear you. I tried to ctb when I was 15 and no matter how much i try to progress in real life and push myself away from that place I always end up in an inevitable state of depression and stagnancy. It's so tiring and fruitless. You're not alone in your rotting feeling; it's like those marcescent leaves you see in autumn that still cling to their branches needlessly while they're withered and dead. Wishing you the strength and peace you need, whatever happens

 

[finallyicanendit]

I hear you. I tried to ctb when I was 15 and no matter how much i try to progress in real life and push myself away from that place I always end up in an inevitable state of depression and stagnancy. It's so tiring and fruitless. You're not alone in your rotting feeling; it's like those marcescent leaves you see in autumn that still cling to their branches needlessly while they're withered and dead. Wishing you the strength and peace you need, whatever happens

"marcescent leaves you see in autumn that still cling yo their branching needlessly whole they're withered and dead"
I couldn't have said it better ☹

 

[Kennish]

I also wish I was better.

 

[FuneralCry]

Being alive really is painful, especially when we wish for things we cannot realistically have. I can imagine it must be such a hopeless feeling. We can try our best, but of course random factors out of our control determine everything. It is very unfair. I wish you the best.

 

[justsurrender]

You do deserve only the best, and I am sorry that things have been so difficult. Virtual hugs. Please hold on to your dreams as a light through the pain.